Rest in peace family and friends. I apologize to anyone who's had a close friend or family member pass away recently and I am sincerely hopeful that you make it through this hard time. I give out hugs to you and your people who are hurting along with you, and I will wish you all the best.
To anyone who needs this, you are absolutely beautiful in more ways than one. You are cherished by those around you, whether that be in your personal life or online. I cannot physically hug and embrace all of who you are, but just know that I will always welcome you into my arms and into my home. I love you and I am proud of you. You've come so far and been through so much, and for that I give my respect to you.
You're so much more than capable of doing what you love and no matter what someone will say about you, you should keep moving forward because you need to prove them wrong. You're not useless, worthless, or uncapable of finding love (any kind of love). You just need time. Sometimes it's okay to hurt, be angry, and want to cry. That's what makes us human. Let it all out if you truly need to.
Be safe, keep your head high, and blast that music that will give you the confidence you need because even if it's just for the moment, at least you're able to relax a little. A single amount of effort will get you so far. I'm not gonna beg you to stay, but let me ask you this..
Is it what you truly want? Is it worth all the time you've spent convincing yourself it's gonna be okay?
I'm sorry if this doesn't help, but I really do believe in you. I believe you can get better. Trying isn't the problem, love. It's your attitude, and you need to step it up! Even just a little bit.
I love you, I really do. Stay strong, my angels. <3