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How ya doing?

Smallest of updates: my mental state has gotten better. Not great, but better. 2024 is gonna be "my year" in a sense. Currently got two Batman chapters moving along with an end to the current mini-arc in sight. Not happy right with life right now, but I'm satisfied and have a desire to eventually be happy. Might mean more writing in my future.

I'm going to be super real for a minute. 
          
          I'm struggling to find the motivation to do just about anything right now. I've been dealing with depression for about eight years now, dating back to sixth grade. I've sort of accepted that I won't be happy, that's why I decided my purpose was going to be helping others enjoy their lives instead. I've tried things to make me happy, namely weightlifting, studying film, and writing. Then things went down with my mom. It hurt enough having to watch, the helplessness of watching her wither away while I couldn't do anything. Her passing left me empty, like I'd failed to help the woman who gave me everything. But that, along with my girlfriend and I breaking up, has left me wondering where I'm supposed to find happiness. While I figure that out, I'll be putting stories aside until I feel the drive to commit to them again. I might work on them here and there, but don't expect any updates. I want to be in a place where I want to tell interesting stories again.

Can I ask you a question please 

I have a confession to make. I played Spider-Man 2 when it dropped at midnight and played until 4 AM, then got right back on it when my personal copy arrived in the mail alongside all 19 of Venom's inches for release day delivery. I also proceeded to beat it that day and platinum it 5 days later, a day after my birthday.
          
          Now, the Batman chapter is literally paragraphs away from being done, but I want to write Spider-Man as much as possible and indulge in the black suit arc. I'm even considering beating the game's campaign again.
          
          Please send help.

U ded?

Hey just spreading the word that Wattpad might be deleting stories that are ongoing/ haven't been updated in a while don't know if it's true or not, but you might want to be saving your stories.

Who would you think is the perfect choice to play Batman in the upcoming DCU movies?

I'm gonna put this in a separate post because it wouldn't fit with the first, but Across The Spiderverse was an electrifying movie that I think shouldn't be allowed to skirt by on reputation. The characters, soundtrack, and animation were all stellar. Each spider is visually distinctive, with callbacks any veteran Spidey fan will appreciate. I especially loved 2099, and while I may not be a great fan of the change to his story, I do like that they were willing to be original in a way that gives him personal investment to the new narrative.
          
          That said, there are different concepts and practices that don't hold up in hindsight. I can't go into great details without spoilers, but the spider people feel both less than heroic and redundant in their purpose. They're meant to watch over the multiverse, but there's nothing uniquely spider about the problem where literally anyone else couldn't do the job. The feel like a more flamboyant TVA. Miles tries to alter the path of his reality by saving someone, which all the spiders are against, but Miles by nature of how he got his powers is inherently an alteration, so who's to say he'd make things worse? There's also the concern of damaging realities even though they've shown that damage can be treated, so what's the point? Is it because it's inconvenient? And then there's hard set events being required even though part of what made the first movie work was that anything could happen. It's a 6/10 for me.

Just saw Transformers, that thing had my blood pumping and my eyes glued to the screen. The Terrorcons are conveyed with so much menace and feel almost invincible in any fight they get into. Optimus had an interesting arc, something he usually doesn't receive seeing as he's a paragon character, and Mirage was both hilarious and had an interesting level of exploration rather than a broader arc. The Maximals were standouts that got me excited every time they were on screen. The one I was most hyped for was Optimus Primal. I remember jokingly telling my girlfriend that I wanted two hours of metal monkey rage porn, and he didn't disappoint. There are some concepts I wish were further explored, but overall it was well paced. Solid 7.5/10.