@GUCCISXN oh my gosh this is my fearrrr. I totally forgot they can do that, well at least some places??? I do know they have different rules everywhere to say the least. I completely understand that for sure how that can take a toll on you. I would feel like my world is ending & honestly just sleep sleep sleep & free load. I'm in to arts & crafts but, if you ever met a knitter or crocheter they will tell you that it's very therapeutic. If you ever have time or feel like it, check it out as you recover hun. I can even send you some ideas myself personally make a book for you so you can go check it out.
Don't smoke for too long to where it becomes hard to get back out of it. I'm proud of you for how far you come. Not everything is for everyone as far as college. Even if you knew it was something you wanted, always remember that there are times in which something wasn't meant to be. (The answer will never be NO. Rather Yes, some time Later, or there's something Better for you (to receive.)))