el_tsune

two weeks before our supposed to be anniversary even if we’re not together. i’m writing this now‚ it’s almost 11 a.m. while listening to ‘The Night We Met’ it still hurts and it will always hurt. not because of you, but the fact that i won’t be spending this lifetime with you. the fact that i have to achieve the dreams and life  i once wished when i was with you. the people i want to become, the places i want to explore. it's crazy and funny to think that i gotta call someone the same pet names i used to call you, that i have to tell 'em things about me that you already knew. knowing it would be hard for me to look at other person without finding your soul in them.. people told me to move on, to move forward.. but tell me? how can you unlove someone that made you want to live? someone you deeply care for..

el_tsune

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hi HAHAHAHAHA sleepless nights again. fuck, where did i go wrong. people kept on telling me that maybe one day you'll comeback or one day we'll talk again.. and i've been dreaming of you almost everyday.
          
          i had a bad dream na namatay ka, almost three weeks ago ig. it's hurts, a lot. kasi after the no contact, i haven't had any single dreams abt you. and now biglaang mayroon, then last night i had a dream that you came back.. miss mo rin ba ako? naiisip mo pa rin ba ako?
          
          pinagdadasal mo pa ba ako?  i hope you do. kukumpletuhin ko yung simbang gabi, hihilingin ko na ibalik ka sakin. i know it's too late to make things right but.. i can do better.
          
          sorry for being selfish, in a way that you felt invalidated na. sorry for hurting you, sorry for not understanding you. we both had our own reasons.
          
          lagi mong sinasabi sakin.. maghihiwalay lang tayo kapag ayaw ko na sayo. maghihiwalay lang tayo kapag hindi na kita mahal pero mag iisang taon na, ikaw pa rin. ikaw pa rin yung gusto kong kasama at mahalin.
          
          araw araw kong ipagdadasal na sakin ka pa rin.