Gabe Winchester

I'm disgusting. No wonder people don't talk to me. 

Show a smile. They'll stop asking if your okay soon. Then they won't bother to ask when you aren't okay. Now your alone with your thoughts. And they drown you in darkness. Good luck

Battling depression is a war you never really win. You may think you beat it but it'll come back and stronger than ever. It never goes away. Just waits for the right moments where you can't do anything. No one can help either. They don't care enough. I'm never good enough for them am I?  

Y'all ever just have a crush and they constantly talk about their girlfriend to you? I'm trying to hide my feelings but they make me think that they know about it. It scares me. I don't wanna lose them their an amazing friend. It sucks to have a crush on your best friend. Maybe they want me to leave though. That'd make sense. Everyone leaves me eventually. : ) 

Do I know that no one reads what I type? Yes. 
          
          Do I care? No
          
          Will I continue to scare people away? Yeah. 
          
          Do I want help? ..... I'm too scared. 

Ya know what's fun? Being completely alone. No one will like you so they leave you to rot. And hey, least you won't need to worry about anymore back stabbers and no one will leave you. Because you have no one! Haha! Isn't that great! Texting your friend and they don't reply because they don't care enough! By God you'll never be good enough will you. It's better to leave them alone so they can forget about you and have a better life. 
          
          
          
          I'm so stupid. Why do people put up with me. Why can't I leave them alone so they can be happier. I want to fix myself, but I can't because who wants to spend time digging for glass shards in a garbage can. You get dirty hands and cuts from it. No one wants to waist their time 

The holidays are hard when you lose someone, but it's okay. They would want you to be happy right? Yeah...
          
          But sometimes it's impossible to feel happy. You feel empty inside and no one can help you. Your all alone and no one cares. That's why your ignored. You place a mask upon yourself and weights to drag you. Act happy all you want it'll never change how you truly are. The mask will wear down and then what? Will it break under pressure or will you remove it and open up.