GabrielleClifford

Henlo! I’m back after almost a decade. Going back to Wattpad brings a lot of memories. But before I get all sappy, here’s my new story! 
          	
          	I don’t think I’ll find myself writing again if it weren’t for *coughs* BTS *coughs* 
          	
          	PS: Is there anyone out there who used to be a directioner turned army?  let’s get acquainted! 
          	https://www.wattpad.com/1092042357?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading_part_end&wp_uname=GabrielleClifford&wp_originator=wEA2KIdnCFywTG3rYIBnxRwyVqXmtxUrm23Kk2b3myTu3RBCOnTKLYXF85%2BsXwWVuzSNYDixHaa1n%2BgJhB6DFZ1k85NFLz9akad0cLTFutS8XublZsggyv6sLQjRFUPz

GabrielleClifford

Henlo! I’m back after almost a decade. Going back to Wattpad brings a lot of memories. But before I get all sappy, here’s my new story! 
          
          I don’t think I’ll find myself writing again if it weren’t for *coughs* BTS *coughs* 
          
          PS: Is there anyone out there who used to be a directioner turned army?  let’s get acquainted! 
          https://www.wattpad.com/1092042357?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=postToProfile&utm_content=share_reading&wp_page=reading_part_end&wp_uname=GabrielleClifford&wp_originator=wEA2KIdnCFywTG3rYIBnxRwyVqXmtxUrm23Kk2b3myTu3RBCOnTKLYXF85%2BsXwWVuzSNYDixHaa1n%2BgJhB6DFZ1k85NFLz9akad0cLTFutS8XublZsggyv6sLQjRFUPz

GabrielleClifford

I'm not much of a ‘ranter’ but i guess this will prove me otherwise. Don't get me wrong, i love One Direction. I respect their decisions and look up to them as well. One Direction became a huge part of my life, i remembered back then when i was enraged to know OneDirection and how i dreaded them so much because they stole Justin Bieber's spotlight considering that i am a Belieber ever since 2010. How my best friend from freshmen year introduced me to another fandom which I would gladly call Directioners. It took a while but it was all worth it since I realized, I guess the tables have turned now. 
          Enough of that, the main point on why i wanted to rant once again about this is because i am so sick of all the 'One Direction drama' going on. About Liam having a new 'Sophia Smith' that i'm not sure i've heard of, or if  I did I’m sure I ignored - and how Directioners dreaded it at some points that I do know why. Harry on having a new crush, Louis and El break up or marriage sooner, About Zayn's ENGAGEMENT?! Hell I don’t know what’s going on anymore.
          One minute I’ll be in school learning about things aren’t related to them the second I came back home someone from across the globe will tell me One Direction is blah blah blah.
          Trust me, I will never question Zerrie’s love for each other, but I guess I will never call myself a fan of theirs anyway.
          Don’t get me wrong, I can see true some in their eyes but Zayn and Perrie? Aggh, I can’t explain myself right now, and I bet you hate me for misunderstanding what I wanted to say.
          Zayn and Perrie are both young yet professional in both of their works but seeing them getting married, soon enough? Is what I call a bit rushed.

GabrielleClifford

*sighs* I’ve decided this way back in summer because I’ve noticed that I am into things I never thought I am. I guess I’m ready to welcome things that are somehow new to my senses. 
          There came a time in my life, that I doubted my love for One Direction. Am I being over-possessive? Am I being too dedicated?  Am I too distracted? Or am I obsessive? And after a whole lot of processing, it took a while for me to locate for an answer. And that is, yes.
          
          I wouldn’t call myself a ‘Directioner’ if I always doubt my love for them or if I don’t respect their decision. I won’t call myself a fan if I always hate whenever they have a relationship.
          I somehow forgot that they are humans too. And that is very inhumane for me to do.
          If I would call myself a ‘Directioner’ once again, I should find a way to love them for who they really are. If I would call myself a fan, I should find a way to respect their decisions, their own opinions and perspectives.
          Trust me, I really love them for who they are. But I guess, fan fictions and realities are somehow mixing up. In my head, I always thought that I could always have someone to talk to. I thought I have a friend that is beside me. I thought I could always have someone to cuddle in when I’m scared. I thought I could always have someone to tell me that everything’s going to be okay. I thought that I can talk to them that I always thought would exist in fan fictions.
          I always thought that I have One Direction beside me whenever I needed them.
          How will those happen if I never even met them in person?
          Hell they don’t even know my name! 
          To avoid mixing my reality to my fantasy, I decided to set things aside first and keep the things that I needed in priority. Those ‘fan girling’ things can wait. I bet they will be there for as long as I wanted to turn to once again. Even after 10-15 years they will still be there.
          But not now.
          Not at the least maybe.
          So I decided to let go for moment.
          I will leave the fandom for the meantime.