Azar 💧⭐🔥

AHHHHH THIS EXISTS- I FORGOR- I forgor this place exists half the time- uhhh so yeahhh, time to disappear for another year and half (unless I start posting stories)

4:20 WHAT'CA SMOKIN?

You were one of the most important things in my life at one point. Please don’t forget that. I miss how much fun we had way back when. How much fun we had simply being in each other’s presence. But, maybe it was just me who had fun. Maybe it was just me who wishes we were sometimes still close. Maybe it’s just me who misses the connection we once had. Maybe it’s just me who thinks we HAD a connection. Maybe, it’s just me. Maybe, you don’t feel the same way. Maybe, you never did. Maybe, we were only friends because we had hung out for so long, it would feel weird for you to stop hanging out. Who knows. But regardless, I miss you, and I am really really sorry, for any negative way we ended. And any negative feelings towards me you have. I still love you, and I always will even if you don’t or never loved me.
          
          Signed,
          Your Brother forever and always <3

Not many of my real life EX friends are on here. If they are thought, they aren't on here often. I know that only a few or none of them will see this but I want to apologize.
          
          I know I've fucked up in the past, whether it was saying some dumb, or dark shit I shouldn't have or doing things I shouldn't have, I fucked up. I have made many mistakes, caused many problems between many people, and I am sorry for it all. I am sorry for any negative way I have made you feel. Any negative emotion I have caused you to have. Any negative memory of me you have. I am sorry for it all. I really wish I could take it back. I sometimes wish we were still close, but then I think of how I have messed up, and realized maybe this is for the better. Us being no longer close like we once were. The laughs we once had, the smiles, the happy memories, the sad memories. That's exactly what they are. Memories. New ones never to be made again, old ones to soon be forgotten. I think of you often, although you probably don't believe it. Sometimes I will see you or a photo of you and wonder how you're doing. Wonder if I should text you. Wonder how you would react if I were to text you. Wonder if you would text me back, or even open it. Wonder if you sometimes miss me as much as I miss you. But then sometimes I think if I were to receive a message from you, I would be hesitant about it. Not know how to respond or act due to not knowing how your humor changed, or how YOU have changed. Not know if I were to make a reference to what was once an inside joke, if you would get it. If you would laugh about it. If we would laugh about it like we once did. Then start talking about things that made us laugh until he had abs that popped up. About memories we once had. About how when we did this, or when we did that. Or even how we cared for each other. In a sibling way, how we loved each other. I'm not fully sure if we ever fought often, but if we did, I still loved you. More than how I acted at the moment. 1

Wattpad should make an update where we can like comments, or something
          
          
          Right?

4:20 blazin' what'cha smokin?

See, bros, I'm reading all these zombie story one shots, right? And all of them are like the reader tries killing themselves because of how depressed they feel, right? Is it sad that I'm pretty sure, if I did have depression, zombies would be the cure to my depression? You know? Or am I just weird? Anyone else like this?

4:20 blazin' what'cha smokin?

4:20 blazin' what'cha smokin?

I have no idea why I'm telling all of you this. It's actually quite stupid. 
          
          I think I have a god complex though. Like I often refer to myself as god himself. Mom will say "OH my god." And I will pop out from the kitchen "yes?" Then my dad will come out of no where and be like "you're not god. Shut up." And it pisses me off.
          
           My friends would mention me and I would say "y'all talking about me?" And theyd be like "yeah we are what are you gonna do about it?" And id say "smite you, now bow before me peasent." I also say that line a lot too.
          
          It makes me feel ridiculously powerful in those scenes. Like I am above everyone, and everything. I told someone to bow before me before and they did. I felt the most powerful at that moment.