When you have done something wrong, and that you have been doing anything that seems weird or obscured, your friends will obviously become disappointed at you. The things you have done before, it might have made them so concerned and confused about why would they do such a thing. You might even plead them that it's not your fault...
Well, they will not agree with that and would blame every wrongdoing you done back at you, and they will obviously cut you off from their lives, ending friendships and making everyone feeling upset. That hurts.
You might end up regretting everything you did and blame yourself for all of the stuff you did, even to the point of thinking about... other things. Yeah. Sure, you have done something bad, you lost your friends, and now, you're sitting alone in your room, crying for hours on end to the point that your eyes become salmon red~
But, after all that, you will obviously start to realize that you have done that bad thing and you agree to accept it, and you forgive them anyway for what you've done. Over time, you learned yourself something and that you agree to not do that same thing again. Because, as we all know, anger can make you go out of control, fear can make you walk away from drama, and regret can make you understand what you've done.
So, if it makes it better, you should agree that you did something wrong, and try not to be like what you are in the past. Accept that it's over, there's always more doors of opportunities to open along the way ~