GaiaJMX

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GaiaJMX

Man my biography is old.
          
          I do have some of the novels that I announced back then, but I don’t like to post anything on here anymore kekekeke.

pnat89

@GaiaJMX ok...i wish to read your works someday...  ;)
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GaiaJMX

@pnat89 they are still in private actually. It was the novel that was about more regret and the effects of the death of their loved on [BL] and how Mc went back in time. Although Mc kept his adult mindset instead and doesn’t know what made the ML decide to end things (in terms of life). It’s more the process of how Mc navigates the relationships and resolve the regrets of what happened back then. Some of the snippets of other novels are mostly private in discord servers of my friends because nowadays I fear more of the critique of people, so I don’t trust myself to post anymore. Someday maybe.
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pnat89

@GaiaJMX where do you post?
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GaiaJMX

Sometimes wondering if I ever write here again or not, but trauma of a teenage writer with no logic keeps coming back and making me remember what ignorant and idiotic stuff I wrote c(⌒(_´･×･`)_

InazumaYoshi

@GaiaJMX Oh wow lol. I mean I have written some cringe stuff before, and I mean mega cringe, because I see it as completely immoral now and I have to turn it off/bin it... so I get you... in a different way
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GaiaJMX

@InazumaYoshi ye, but also more shameful for me kekekeke. Some of the stuff that seemed good at the time was more like trauma dumping compared to a great story. It was just edgy and full of hatred from a teenager. Nostalgia from the time it felt good to write and when social media hadn’t taken a turn after covid, reality hitting when it manifests into repeated bad memory instead ʕ ◉ﻌ◉ ʔじー
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InazumaYoshi

@GaiaJMX Do you ever get the thing where you have that nostalgia of "great things" because it seemed good at ths time but it's trash?
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GaiaJMX

Still a reminder that most old stories have been privated due to them being made when I was 15 and more ignorant and had disturbing thoughts (shouldn’t have read guro back then, disturbed my mind a lot and now I’m disturbed by those kind of things.)
          
          Also I barely like to write anything with yandere tendencies anymore. If there are yandere, then both ml and Mc are to each other. Otherwise most of my mc’s nowadays are more tsundere or more less violent (action is always a win though).
          
          I just don’t write on wattpad anymore because times have changed. I grew up. Am over 20 now. It’s for those who still see my old comments on payback and such. I used to think I owed everyone a better rewrite and a better story, in reality, I just grew resentful and now like to write the stories I want to write with more character depth and more character relationships.
          
          If there is ever a chance I write “Time passes” again, it would be very different and probably under a different name. I don’t want to associate old stories and old characters with old titles <^>.
          
          That’s all am gonna say

JustYourOldLaundry

I understand your sentiment.. i also read guro (if it’s the same disturbing thing I think you mean). I resent the younger me and things I’ve done but now I’m learning to move past that and grow so that (hopefully) people don’t see as the same person I was
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JoannaBell69

@GaiaJMX We all live and grow. You write what makes you happy, and like-minded readers will follow ❤️
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