GakupoKamuiFanBoy

yes, im using my pic as my bg
          	 #selflove

GakupoKamuiFanBoy

Dear Ivan, 
          I will be releasing these games, along with evidence of your abuse at midnight
          Before then, however, I'd like to speak to you directly
          7 years ago I published my first game. 
          
          I hated it. 
          
          I thought the mere fact that I tried was something to be ashamed of. 
          
          The games that followed had similar feelings about. 
          Each one, in my mind was a blemish on the soon-to-blossom carreer I felt entitled to. 
          
          The next one was always the one that'd make this awful hobby into a job. 
          
          It had to be. I needed to give myself a reason to justify why I'm still here. 
          
          I found no justification through games, of course. 
          
          I found it through you. 
          
          You admired me in a way I never had. 
          You were stupid enough to think I brought value to the world, And I was stupid enough to believe you. 
          
          For the first time, i was something to be proud of. 
          Not just my games, but of me. Myself. 
          
          You know what happened next. 
          You caused it, after all. 
          
          But now, I've escaped. 
          
          And now I'm different. 
          
          I'm trying not to cry now. or I've been trying this whole time, but I don't know and I don't care and I hope you know that
          
          I hope you know that because I want it to hit you in whatever is left of your soul and I want it to tear you apart. 
          
          Because I love you
          
          Or, I loved before, But now I hate you. 
          
          I hate you like bloody knuckles, and I hate you like an axe hanging over my head and I hate you like you're still my friend and
          
          I'm glad your dad never knew the person he raised
          
          And when you finally listen, I still won't come back. 
          
          Don't try to find me, 
          
          - Andrew

GakupoKamuiFanBoy

Hey, Andrew. Please don't close the door. Just let me talk and I'll leave. I promise. I.. I'm scared. And- and your words have been repeating in my mind without end. I stay in my bed for hours after I wake up. I barely eat. I've been daydreaming in my mind until I can't tell what's real and what isn't... I'm trying to say that I'm broken. I don't want to be this way anymore.
          
           So I've come here to make amends, or- or to apologize, or to get closure, I don't know and I really don't care what you call it. I believe that love just looks a little different for everyone. For me it was darker than most. Meaner than most.
          
          . A little uglier than most... And I loved you a lot. More than I could bare. You. Andrew, the developer. With your talent, no wonder I put you on a pedestal. And I- I... Looking to the sky can leave you blinded by the sun, I guess. And I lost you, somewhere along the way. And I replaced you with who *I* wanted to be. 
          
          But, but now I have suffered and I have learned! I was reborn, Andrew, cleaned as I walked through the fire! I won't hurt you. Not again, I promise. I was wrong. We *do* need each other. We did this, not just the game, but all of this, together, right? Every step of the way to become who you are now, I was there. You fall down, and I'm there. 
          
          You cry out, and I'm there. You look back, and I'm there. Each picture of yourself in your mind. Out of focus, hidden, you'll find me there. We made each other. Seperated, we tear ourselves apart. I understand if you don't forgive me. I understand if you hate me... but please, *please* don't forget me Andrew.

GakupoKamuiFanBoy

ALL I HEAR R MATH EQUATIONS!!!!!!! (ALL I HEAR R SCREAMS /EPIC) 

jAiLeYiSlOvE

@GakupoKamuiFanBoy I keep thinking of the alphabets in math, I keep thinking of algebraaaaaa
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GakupoKamuiFanBoy

@jAiLeYiSlOvE 
            
            IT'S AS HARD AS IT SEEMS, BUT IN THE PRISON CELL YOUR SLEEP IS FAR BEHIND!! 
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jAiLeYiSlOvE

@GakupoKamuiFanBoy EVERY TIME I DARE TO CLOSE MY BOOKS, I NO LONGER DREAM ONLY NIGHTMARES OF CALCULUS! 
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GakupoKamuiFanBoy

I keep hearing voices that aren't actually there, constantly, am I hallucinating? 

Temptation_pls

@GakupoKamuiFanBoy oh, oki! I'm here if you ever need anything  >< love ya!
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GakupoKamuiFanBoy

@Temptation_pls 
            
            Ah,, that explains it, I didn't know being bipolar could cause that,, 
            
            No need to pooks! If anything, Ill research more about it, you continue what you were doing, or whatever you wanted to do! :) 
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GakupoKamuiFanBoy

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