Second to everyone

I know that you are mad at me and that you hate me and you don't want to hear from me or message me. Would you like to adopt a young Vietnam veteran as your son? The one that had hurt you was my father he is dead now 

Lord please take me now and save me from heart ache and pain

She says she hates cheating but she stole the love of my life from me.....

He called her name in his sleep. It's happening again  what's going to happen when I have children he's going to stop caring about the family he has and desert me forever my heart is never going to be mended from last time. I'm all alone with nobody not even him..  

I was the one who taught him to kiss. The way that he kisses her now. And she know the way he touches her cheek, Well, I taught him how. I was the one who taught him to cry. When he wants her under her spell. The sight of his tears drove him out of my mind, I taught him so well. And then one day I had my love as perfect as could be. He lived, he loved, he laughed, he cried, And it was all for me. I'll never know who taught him to lie. Now that it's over and done,
          Who learned the lesson when he broke my heart? And told her she was the one just as he used to tell me. 4 years he made me happy as could be. She came along and took him from me

Now there's a liar telling people I am with him I hate people like that another reason I am done with everything 

I'm tired of giving my heart to people no matter what it ends up broken I'm not made for love 

I'm tired of the heart ache he never speaks to me at all I'm even his second choice i hate crying myself to sleep  at night I'm done trying I try so hard to be strong and be good enough and it never works I'll never be good enough for him I never get a smile' never a goodmorning or an I love you without me saying it first only two words are ever exchanged then he stops talking I'm his second choice  too I'm about ready to give up and die

He is all I ever wanted but he never talks to me or acknowledge that I'm alive I'm all alone and it hurts my heart I guess all I'm good for is nothing 

I sigh. I wish he was here at home with me for a longer period 9f time I'm sad to wake up and not see his face in the morning