STOP RELYING ON OTHERS!!
In a few years you're gonna eventually go apart bc of whatsoever and then a few years later ur falling appart bc you have different lifestyles, jobs, friends and so on. I hate it when ppl can't do anything bc they can't do it without they're partner/bff/... I mean b*tch.....
Learn to understand urself and how to accomplish YOUR goals/life first before you get the "junk" of another person on your shoulders. I mean at the end of the day it's YOUR life, not somebodys other. They can't feel what you feels and can't FULLY understand you. The only person who knows best about you isn't you best friend or lover. It's YOU.
So quit running around your best mate and start learning who you really are and what you want to become. Actually you care more about yourself than you care about others. I mean it's normal for everyone. And of course you'll need help from others once in a while but not 24/7.