Averie Grace <3

I wish my gf knew how bad my food issues get sometimes, but i dont ever wanna have that conversation. we've been together officially for 3 weeks. she pointed out once that I don't eat, so now I eat lots around her, but it makes me so frigging nauseous and sad and angry and scared. 

I understand this can be a hot take but if I talk about politics with my family I get yelled at and in trouble 
          
          I think everyone should be taxed 20% of their yearly income. people are... and I feel like a pretentious entitled bitch saying this but... poeple are naturally prejudiced against People with privilege. but being better off doesn't inherently make someone a bad person and someone heavily discriminate against can still be a dick. if we were taxing the poor a higher percentage than the wealthy that'd be unacceptable, but, and even though everyone will deny this, it's classism to tax wealthier people just because they make more money. people get paid vis a vis how much they work. a ceo a major tech company is obviously gonna make more money than someone who works at a fast food chain and that obviously doesn't mean the fast food worker should have to pay high taxes but neither should the ceo simpley becauseof their job. any time a minority is in any unfair situation as they often are they are, rightfully so, upset. but conventionally privileged people deserve the same level of fairness. that's what human rights and equality is. I am 150 billion % against discrimination and bigotry of all kinds but, as much as that applies to minorities it also applies to majorities and anything less is just as bad. you can't pick an choose when to be lenient or fair, that's not how being a decent leader or person works.

do you ever think about how peaceful the end of the universe would be? beautiful and tragic and freeing and spiritual and answering. I'd give anything to witness it

sometimes I feel like my motivations are effed up purely because I'm convinced my entire life is just a perpetual personal purgatory so despite the fact it's subconscious, I'm a bad person for only being good to help myself because maybe the universe would forgive me if I make up for my sins. I never actually have these thoughts but I'm convinced my soul forces me to because honestly I'm my own worst enemy which why I'm my biggest fear. people should only fear themselves truly and wholy because the slef is the only way to get into a situation that could can unwanted harm, whether you mean it to or not. kismet is effed up. cuz no matter what you do you can't change what's meant to happen. just cuz you have free will doesn't mean you get to control the outcomes. things just happen and I hate that. yet I'm bound to this tedium by my blistering soul and chillingly crystalizing feels.

I've been so dead on wp for ages and I apologize for that. if anyone.ever needs me im here. I'll do anything and everything I can to help or just listen if that what you need

I have to write a speech for english about a social issue I'm passionate on. I've narrowed it down to six things and even that was hard. HELP ME.
          - housing crisis
          - abundance of refugees 
          - political corruption 
          - lgbtqia+ rights
          - repro rights
          - mental health stigma

sometimes I feel like a bad person simply because as much as a yap online and to the people I know and argue with ppl in the street, I don't actually do that much to help society and fight bigotry and people struggling financially and abuse victims and people with chronic and mental illness and everything in between. I wanna be rich so I can donate to charities and start my own charities and help ppl

if I could take all of the pain and problems in the world away from everyone else and keep it for myself, I would... 1 suffering person is better than 8 billion. classic trolley problem

is it weird I love the clicky sound of typing on a smartphone but hate the vibrations of a timer (straight up can fall asleep to typing sounds but an alarm going off can send me into a panic attack)

I feel like I've really good at life advice