Hi

I wonder what it feels like to fall in love

I wish I was actually saying the truth when I say that I don't care what people think of me.

If you hate me I iust have one thing to say to you: I hate myself more than you so HAH!

I feel like crying

You ever miss someone so much that they just consume your thoughts? You want to see them again but you know it won't be possible. And you worried sick because you have no way to know if they're okay. And you hate them so much because you hate how you can't think about anything else but them. And you just wish you never met them because then you wouldn't be like this. But at the same time you're glad you two met because they're one of the best things to ever happen to you. And you hate yourself for getting attached to them even though you knew theh would leave. You hate yourself for being foolish enough to think about you two still chatting and having fun in the future. And you want to forget them so you can move on but you promised you didn't and you really also don't want to forget them. And you just hate that you love this person. You hate this person for making you feel this way but you know deep down you just love them very much. And you wish you could have one more chance to talk to this person. One more chance to tell them how much they mean to you. One more chance to say goodbye. One more chance to tell them you love them

I feel trapped.

Man, I should really stop getting attached to people so easily. After all, like everyone says, everyone always ends up leaving you, one way or another.

Y'll ever just stop and think, I am so lucky. Like I was just here, laying in bed being sad and shit. But then I remember I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. I have an education. I have a family, even tho it isn't the best. I have friends. I have a toothbrush and toothpaste. I feel most people take things for granted and don't realize it. You just need to take a step back and see how lucky you are. I read book about a holocaust survivor which really just left me in shock. I just can't believe how incredibly lucky I am sometimes.

Ya know sometimes I feel confident and ask myself why the hell am I still single. Then I look myself in the mirror and remember who I am amd say, oh that's why.

I want a cat.