M 🌺(she/her)🌺

1 year ago today I finally broke up with my very abusive ex boyfriend that I had spent nearly a year and a half with and had fully convinced myself I was gonna marry and it was by far the hardest thing I had ever done. Every goal I had had revolved around him, so I was left alone with no dreams or direction 
          
          I'm not telling you this to brag or harbor sympathy though. I'm telling you this because I want you know it gets so much better. Despite it being the hardest thing I've ever done, I've never regretted it and this has been a year of healing and learning to love myself and finally getting to realize MY dreams, not what he wanted me to be. 
          
          If you're looking for a sign to break up with your abuser, this is it. I promise you that it gets better. I'm happier than I've ever been and I know myself better than ever, and it's all because I made that hard choice. Put yourself first. They're not as important as you think they are
          
          I love you <3

If y'all are curious about how the main gang looks in Bullets, the closest celebrity lookalikes to the way I picture them are Keke Palmer for Midnight, Yungblud for Chaos and Hunter Schafer for Rainbow :-) I can't really think of a close equivalent to the way I picture Neon but I'd be curious to see if you guys have any theories for someone she (or any of the others if you see them differently!) may look !!!!

finally working on a new chapter of all we are is bullets <333 missed writing this bad boy so much, I gotta say these are some of my favorite characters I've created

hey besties, speaking of sexual assault awareness month, I just want to hold myself accountable for a second here 
          
          I am deeply, deeply sorry for my past support of mindless self indulgence. Honestly, I haven't even listened to them in years, but the msi profile picture and having jimmy in my books? Not a good look. I'm sorry, and I'd like to take this moment to renounce mindless self indulgence and I hope that jimmy urine rots <3 
          
          I'll definitely be adding blurbs to chapters in which he was featured, if I don't just remove him entirely. I'm truly disgusted by his actions 

I was just informed that it's sexual assault awareness month and, as someone who's passionate about speaking out about abuse I don't feel that it would be right if I didn't post something
          
          So, I'm using this moment to admit that I'm a 3 time sexual assault survivor myself
          
          Sexual assault is sick and cruel and happens way more frequently than we may like to think. I just wanted to use this moment to say that if you're also one of the 97% I am so, so, deeply sorry. You never deserved what happened to you. It was never your fault. And I know it can be hard to ask for help or even admit what happened, but if any of you ever need someone to talk to about it then my messages are always open. I've been there and I know how it feels. 
          
          I love you all. Be safe. 

I don't say it enough but I just really really appreciate y'all <3 thank you guys so so much for reading my crappy stories and my commentary and always being in my comments making me laugh and smile and making jokes with me <333 you guys are so clever and funny and sweet and you all honestly always make my days. As much as I like to act like I resent my stories, I don't because they brought me such a great community and some awesome friends. I love y'all, thanks for reading :) 

And also just a quick note here, Just the Two of Us was not included in the vote for a few reasons: for one, I didn't know where I wanted to go with the plot so I abandoned it and it was never finished. For two, it was never popular so it didn't spread a harmful depiction of love to as wide of an audience as the others and therefore, I feel, doesn't warrant commentary to offset the harmful messages. Honestly, I might just private that one. 
          
          The Killjoy one wasn't included because that one was started significantly more recently than the others and I don't feel that it needs commentary. I am actually genuinely proud of the writing in that one and SURPRISE!! I'm gonna be continuing it soon
          
          That's right, babes. It's the return of M to the world of writing fanfiction. Be prepared 

Okay since I'm almost done with commentary on DLS let's take a vote on which story should be given the commentary treatment next, shall we? 
          
          1. Continue with the teacher saga and do Teach Me How to Love Again
          2. Continue doing part 1s of series and do The Orphan and the Artist
          3. None, M, your commentary is annoying and you should stop it
          
          Place your votes in the comments darlings 

Omg guys I'm gonna start slapping some of my fav comments (with creds to the original commentor of course) into the description of DLS like they're book reviews so some of y'all better be ready to be featured babes

Commentary is up for chapters 44-46! I have no idea why I insist on doing this to myself! :D