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Oh. And.. smth else i forgot to write… i didnt.. specify what reasons or anything… the reason that was so rubbish was that he was tormented and abused by transphobic family members… which makes no sense now that i think about it… i just wanted elodie to know… i understand now… i was a stupid teenager and im just starting to become more mature… and i admit.. what i did was parasocial..i was.. too excited…too eager… and made her uncomfortable… i have my reasons for the way i am… im just not comfortable sharing them… but i hope that someday… elodie will read this… allow me to explain myself more clearly…i wont post or anything for about 2 months…or maybe more… i just need time to process everything i did… and everything i should’ve done to avoid it… i disregarded her efforts to explain it all to me. I hurt her like many people before me. Even if it was unintentional i still did something wrong.. and i put her books in the wrong spotlight cuz of my stupid ideas and need to be right about smth. I will still write m aus about HCD… just this time… ill respect the canon story line… and ensure that i dont make the same mistakes i did with the first book. I was uneductated with writing and posted the story too quickly. Without thinking. And im sorry. I hurt elodie and her fans so much… i just wish i realized it a year ago when she explained it to me… so elodie… if you ever read those 2 posts… just… please know that im sorry… and that i had my reasons that im not comfortable to share publicly…i hope one day you’ll let me explain.. but for now… you deserve the quiet… and i deserve your anger…i hope once i write the new book 2 months later… you’ll see it… and… be relieved that i finally understood… even if it took me about 3 years of you trying…