There's this dream I wanted to let go of, because I know I'm not capable of it, I doubted myself, alright? But then, doubt killed more dreams than failure. But this is different, I don't have what it takes, looking other people's work made me sure even more that this is just not for me. Maybe I liked the thought of doing it, achieving it but putting it all in an action is a different story. I don't know what's keeping me from really doing it, I can point my finger at it, but I know there's something that is holding me back, maybe there is something I needed. I know myself, when I can finally figure out what I really want, I won't give up on it. I will hold it with both hands. But Idk why I'm really wanting to let go of this imaginary dream of mine. Yes, imaginary, because it seems so impossible to reach, to happen. But you know what? The thought of not doing it all, of finally forgetting it and letting it go, scared me so much. Then it dawned on me, I never wanted that dream, that dream wanted me. And I'm gonna try again, try to make it all into reality. I know this post just doesn't make sense to any of you, but I just wanted to let this all out before this year ends, I'm sorry I suck at explaining. But thank you so much for reading this post hahahhaha, love you and happy new year :) 4 hours to go and hello 2017!!!! You will be my year, I can feel it, I will make it happen!