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Ik i havent rlly said anything in a long time but on the 22nd i didnt i think i did

I HAVE TO WRITE THIS ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE MY KINDLE HAS BEEN GLITCHING:((

Please ik it will be very easy to find my bffs account but please dont tell her anything idk of she will find this account but yeah. Thank you for your time :)

i had before told my bff abt it and when i did it again but the day before yesterday i did it again. but i cant tell her because i while  before that she told me that she wasnt comfortable talking abt that and i respect that right like this week i vented to her abt how i always need to repeat things and how its too much now and she said she just doesnt want to talk abt sh if its graphic? (im not sure what she meant) i just dont know what to do. im probably going to do it again tonight but idk ill be drawing so i might get distracted? fuck my arm hurts

i cant even imagine how my siblings would feel they are only 1 :( . ive struggled with sh (sorta? idek how i feel abt it but i cant rlly stop) and i did it yesterday. when i told a teacher i had to stop cus yk. but then in the summer holidays i found a sharpener and managed to open it with a badge. most of my scars are rn from those 2 days

okay so if im being honest i just want to end it all. i have too much going on and im overwhelmed. im trying to get a diagnosis for ocd or whatever tf i have. but to be honest i feel that im over reacting because i dont feel anything. i dont want to be a disappointment to my parents though

so i kinda forgot how to start a new story because i planned on using it to vent so until then ig ill do it here. if you know me irl you dont so get away:)