@GlenMaddock if we were in the same country I would so be willing to video chat, or even come for a visit, but as I am in a different country I would not know the best way to do that and it still be something reasonable cost wise.
I hope they find a kidney for you soon.
I understand about the above/below ground sentiment. Both my parents died younger than I am now. On my mom’s side, have lost most of the aunts and uncles, grandparents, etc. mostly heart related issues, but I do sometimes wonder the same.
I am sorry your paint is boring!!!
Take care and please continue to let us know how you are doing.