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Hey y’all. Say bye bye to Fandom oneshots. It’s going. I feel uncomfortable keeping it up, has I don’t wanna make Cooper or Travis uncomfortable by writing about them. Bye bye book that I never wanna remember again :)

Hello! Just unpublished the chapters on my Charlie Oneshot book that had Carson in them,cuz of the whole thing that happened. I’m also gonna go through my Oneshot book and do that! Be safe and have a great day :) and then I’m going back to my new account OwO

Sup. Uhhhh...so...new account? I wanted to start “fresh” cuz I may not write more MCyt/SMPlive/Dream SMP things anymore :( this account will be fully dead; has I may just come on here sometimes,idk. I may not be writing things for awhile (on the new account) has-ya know-anxiety and motivation that doesn’t exist,UHHH-
          
          @shipchoop

Miss ya bud

Happy New Years! :))

Vent below (sensitive topics like: depression and anxiety)
          
          I have no fucking clue what to do rn...I’m,tbh,probably not gonna continue,like,any of the books I have now. My fandom oneshot book  is officially over and I do not know what to do with my Charlie Oneshot book. Reason why is because I’m in a very bad mental state rn. I’m working SO HARD on my crippling anxiety and I just wanna show how bad this fucking shit is (And I’m not saying that I have it the worst,there’s people out there with MUCH worse problems then me). I get scared-REAL sweaty fear-if one person just says my god damn name. I get scared if I just simply walk down the stairs. I get scared if someone talks to me (that is not family). I get scared if a new/unknown person simply adds my book to their reading list,like wtf! I can’t control it and I’m just scared that I’ll never get over this. All I wanna do for the rest of my life is be in my house, stay with my family and draw. I am not going to a therapist as I’m to scared to ask,even if I 100% need to. I’m fully aware that I should go to someone for help and that this is not ok to just leave. But its hard not to as this has haunted my life for months. I’m often very open with this type of shit online, but not in real life. And if your wondering,no,I’m not suicidal I’m just not in a good state of mind rn. One of the things that have happen under the year is that I’ve went from depressed to not and then depressed again. I got crippling and social anxiety because of a lot of dumb shit,like trauma and “normal” fears. I’m not “quitting” Wattpad but I will probably not continue any of my books,has my mind is just playing with me at this point...

The entire Warrior Cats community is actually screaming rn,because a Warrior Cats map (Multi Animator Project) is finally complete after two years,nearly three,and had its premiere only,like,three minutes ago

UPDATE! So,there may not be anymore Travcicle things. Reason? Because I recently found out that Trav is (even if he hasn’t right out said it) uncomfortable with shipping. Cuz when the Cooper x Travis ship was popping off,he stoped calling Cooper “Coopie” or other nicknames,probably scared that people would start shipping them harder then before. But,I will be writing things with Charbur and some Grizzly and Condi shit as,Wilbur isn’t uncomfortable with shipping,Charlie is *probably* not uncomfortable with it,and the reason it’s “probably” is because he hasn’t said he’s uncomfortable or comfortable with it. Condi and Grizzly,has far as I know,hasn’t said anything about it,soo...

Wait-Wait Wait...can someone who read my newest chapter in the Charlie Oneshot book please tell me if theirs a picture of a cat or a drawing of an arrow and eye or just nothing ;-;

It feels kinda weird when someone says “Merry Christmas” to me today cuz,for me,Christmas was yesterday