Yo, this is me now, the owner of GlitchesAndRainbows. It’s been 8 years. But yeah it’s me, Glitchy, Toby, whatever I was called. Before you look at this profile, read this.
I was 12 then, now I’m 20. I lied about my age because I felt insecure. I also lied about my gender. I wanted so badly to be male, and this was before I knew about transitioning so I thought the only way to do that was to just not let people know the truth. I had body dysphoria, but I think it was deeper than that. I just didn’t like myself at all. I never ended up transitioning because that was never the true issue for me.
I did have anxiety and depression, it was debilitating. But the other disorders, I don’t have them. I wanted attention, this place was my “outlet.” Home life was bad, everything just sucked. But that’s no excuse for the stuff I did here.
I pretended I offed myself, I don’t know why. And you know what’s so messed up? It’s that while talking to people here, I wanted to be genuine but I always pushed people away. I was a drama queen, selfish, wanted attention. My life was hard, but for some reason I made things harder. I was the definition of angsty tween, probably worse. I hate the way I used to be. For one, I remember this one person called “Alex.” We were supposedly “dating,” and I remember being a dick to them a lot. I pretended I was oblivious and made them upset on “accident.” Seriously, what was wrong with me? When we fell off, they sent me a final message. And what I remember about that message was the end, where it read “have a nice life.” I’ll never get to tell them who I really am. I was just a stupid kid who thought I was old enough for things I clearly had no idea about. -
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