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The idea of anyone saying that they're attracted to me terrifies me. I automatically think they're joking. Like no matter how much everyone tells me it's true, I refuse to fully believe it. Also if for some reason I believe them, the feeling is never mutual. I ignore it or pretend that it's mutual because I'm a fucking doormat and I can't say no. Like when someone says 'omg _____ has a crush on you,' I reply 'lol you're funny... you're not joking? Fuck.' And then I usually continue to have a freakout and then ignore it, because it triggers the impending repression alarm and that thing is the bane of my fucking life!!!
Also the fact that anyone could be desperate enough to have a crush on this fat ass, bitch ass, ugly ass hoe is kinda scary.
xoxoSpirit