Goldheart_17

Welp, I am officially hyperfixating on yet ANOTHER rather unknown graphic novel (the first one was "Maelstrom: Prince of Darkness", now it's "Summer Vamp")
          
          Also I already made fanart, uh-
          
          Good night, Night Vale. Good night.
          
          *Casually thinks about this all night instead of sleeping*

Me: Hm... I'm gonna go write something to help me fall asleep
          
          Also me: *Blasts "Everything's On Fire But I'm Fine" by As December Falls on repeat*

Hm
          
          Would people hate me if.... I started writing..... Octonauts stories-
          
          OKAY SO LIKE BEFORE ANYONE GETS MAD, I'M HYPERFIXATING ON OCTONAUTS AND WRITING ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATIONS IS HOW I KEEP MYSELF FROM ABSOLUTELY LOSING ANY AND ALL ABILITY TO SLEEP BECAUSE IT MEANS I CAN GET MY IDEAS OUT
          
          WHILE ALSO MAKING MYSELF TIRED LMAO
          
          Also I really need to work on Cupid's Virus, the "Who Needs Sleep?" rewrite that I can never remember the name of ("I Still Can't Sleep and I Don't Know What to Do"? "My Sleep is Only Getting Worse and I Don't Know What to Do"? Actually maybe it's that one-? I don't knowwwwwww-), and my actual, full story of the Misfits Trio. That one's a passion project as much as my hyperfixation oneshots but it's SUPER important to me, so I'm putting it up there with CV and... um... the... rewrite-
          
          Dear claws I need to rename it T^T
          
          Something something Only Getting Worse and I Don't Know What to Do 
          
          I think
          
          Whatever
          
          Maybe I should just call it "Sleepless Nights" :'D
          
          OH YEAH
          
          "My Nightmares are Only Getting Worse and I Don't Know What to Do" (MNAOGWAIDKWTD for "short")
          
          Alternative title: Sleepless Nights
          
          There
          
          Jeezums
          
          Anyways, yeah, y'all good with me writing goofy little oneshots for whatever I'm hyperfixating on (currently Octonauts)? While also working on CV and SN(/MNAOGWAIDKWTD), I mean

Uhh uhm..
          
          Boo

Bro I'm tempted to write a story about a Marcus Webb and Ms. Chen that includes Meredian and a beat up Honda just to see if people react to it as though it's AI since, y'know, AI has all of those as tells
          
          I'm so over the made up Reddit stories littering YouTube, man. Just give me back the real ones and the interesting Minecraft parkour in the background instead of the same exact video playing every single time, PLEASE
          
          I miss being interested in the stories
          
          I also miss not becoming physically ill from watching the parkour, but idk what to do about that-
          
          On a side note, it's 1:20 in the morning and I am now craving brunch and bread
          
          Mmmm breadddd

Y'all should I write another Misfits Trio oneshot, start writing the main story of them, or work on a different fic??
          
          Cause like
          
          I'm currently obsessing over my silly little Murder Drones OCs
          
          But I also wanna make sure I'm getting stuff out for you guys
          
          Even if it takes a while- TwT

Hm
          
          I ended up commissioning a piece and then got ghosted after sending the payment
          
          Since it was only $10, I ended up letting it go, but now I keep getting anxious about other commissions TwT
          
          SO I just sent messages to two people I haven't gotten an update from in a month (one person, probably had a queue or life happened and they forgot, I totally get it) and several months (I knew I was gonna be on a queue, but it makes me feel better to at least send a quick message since it's been several months without them adding me to their public (again, PUBLIC) queue/Trello) and I really hope that doesn't come across as pushy or anything 
          
          If there are any other artists, can you tell me if that seems pushy or annoying? I don't want to be a nightmare client

"The Other Side" is perfect for a Dazai and Chuuya animatic and you cannot convince me otherwise
          
          Ahhh specifically Dazai and Chuuya when they were fifteen, when Dazai "convinced" Chuuya to join the Port Mafia
          
          I'd do it, but realistically, I'd lose motivation before even finishing the first sketch, lol-

One of my favorite tags I've ever put on any of my fics: "I'm traumatizing EVERYONE"
          
          Another one I love: "No beta we die like Shinra's childhood innocence"

I need a thorough detox from my dad
          
          I got back to my mom's and just broke down
          
          I'm tired but I can't sleep and I don't really want to sleep in case the quiet makes me feel worse
          
          Also I somehow managed to cut myself on the drink cabinet at my dad's earlier?? Like? How?? T^T
          
          That part isn't bad, it's just weird and funny. Also dw I'm fine, it didn't even bleed (which would probably be mildly concerning if it wasn't ME, sometimes I just don't bleed for whatever reason)
          
          Anyways
          
          Good night