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this app is my own personal time capsule. just saw that little thing saying i joined this foresaken app 10 years ago…..i swear this app has both aged me and held me captive at 11 years old. i have drafts that i look back at from that time in my life. mostly used it as a personal little journal, songs i was writing, random plot ideas. 11 year old me was absolutely terrified of life and somehow so weirdly unnerved. 21 year old me laughs a little nervously reading some of the random thoughts i wrote down. 
          	
          	reading things ive written (and mostly never published ofc) is fun and mortifying and entertaining and heartbreaking and so many other things. with the few things i did publish well….its very obvious that it had no direction or very little and was written by a whole ass child lmao.  
          	
          	i think little me would be happy to know she still writes all the time, though i still rarely plan it out in advance, i have one book ive been working on writing for almost 2 years now. that ive written and rewritten and erased entire chapters and then some just to turn around and write five more. i edit the fuck out of my drafts to work cohesively and then when i come up with a new idea that just *fits* and makes sense i find myself going back to edit and fix plot holes and rework the scenes and characters so that the new idea is implemented properly.
          	
          	and when i need a break from that book i go back and reread old drafts, slowly editing whatever i still have posted, i’ll copy the whole chapter into a new draft, edit it, and save it so i can update the whole thing at once because i discovered that if i post a chapter without the entire story being finished…well i never finish the story.
          	
          	all this to say i hated seeing that number 10 because it aged me a little but i love deep diving into the mind ive carried around and dumped into this app for 10 years.

GoneBeyondRepair_

this message may be offensive 
this app is my own personal time capsule. just saw that little thing saying i joined this foresaken app 10 years ago…..i swear this app has both aged me and held me captive at 11 years old. i have drafts that i look back at from that time in my life. mostly used it as a personal little journal, songs i was writing, random plot ideas. 11 year old me was absolutely terrified of life and somehow so weirdly unnerved. 21 year old me laughs a little nervously reading some of the random thoughts i wrote down. 
          
          reading things ive written (and mostly never published ofc) is fun and mortifying and entertaining and heartbreaking and so many other things. with the few things i did publish well….its very obvious that it had no direction or very little and was written by a whole ass child lmao.  
          
          i think little me would be happy to know she still writes all the time, though i still rarely plan it out in advance, i have one book ive been working on writing for almost 2 years now. that ive written and rewritten and erased entire chapters and then some just to turn around and write five more. i edit the fuck out of my drafts to work cohesively and then when i come up with a new idea that just *fits* and makes sense i find myself going back to edit and fix plot holes and rework the scenes and characters so that the new idea is implemented properly.
          
          and when i need a break from that book i go back and reread old drafts, slowly editing whatever i still have posted, i’ll copy the whole chapter into a new draft, edit it, and save it so i can update the whole thing at once because i discovered that if i post a chapter without the entire story being finished…well i never finish the story.
          
          all this to say i hated seeing that number 10 because it aged me a little but i love deep diving into the mind ive carried around and dumped into this app for 10 years.

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general update:
          
          as of this moment in time, all of my works are currently on hold. 
          
          i am in an increasingly bad mental state and as much as i love writing i can’t bring myself to write in this state as i know it won’t be my best and will only make me feel worse and so on.
          
          i don’t know how long i’ll take, hopefully not too long. i’m still around and writing, just not anything i’m putting out. i’m still seeing interactions on my works and i really appreciate it but this is just one of a handful of things i need to step away from for a bit.
           
          i don’t know how many-if any at all-if you actually read these. but for those that have dm’d me or commented demanding i update (you might have noticed i removed those comments btw) please understand i cannot simply create a well developed story overnight. what i have put out in the past hasn’t always been my best bc of this, and more recently i began to understand that it’s ok for me to take my time, i don’t owe anyone anything. i just want to put my best foot forward and i can’t do that overnight, some of the most recent works i’ve put out have been worked on for over a year, started many months before i even published the first part, etc. 
          
          to the kind and encouraging comments, thank you.
          
          so yeah, at least for now i won’t be updating any of my stories or uploading any new ones. 
          
          thanks xxx
          
          12/31/21

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my first writing of this was too long and didn’t give me the option to fix it so basically:
          
          i will at some point rewrite and edit wrong number.
          
          at a much later date i may choose to continue neighbors but i may choose not too.
          
          i have two other books i’m working on outside of the two others for the twilight series. the first of them is a teen wolf fic that i may begin to publish in the next month ish, the second is only barely getting going so that’s still a secret.
          
          anyways,
          
          thank you all so much for anyone who has ever read any of my books. i’ve been writing my whole life and it’s been incredible to see my growth as a writer and to see everyone binge read in one sitting or read over a period of months. you’re all incredible, thank you

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IF YOU READ UNEXPECTED THIS IS FOR YOU
          
          i just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone who has been reading Unexpected recently. it warms my cold dead heart to see the notifications of someone reading chapter one and a few hours later being completely caught upso thank you everyone who has been reading it lately, and i wanted to also let all of you know....i am working on a few related projects! i’ve been working for over a year on this book, and from the beginning for every chapter of amelias pov i write a chapter of jaspers, not necessarily the same moments, and they’ve been saved and i’ve been editing them more and fleshing them out as amelias pov in unexpected comes to an end. i also started working on the next book covering new moon, which admittedly has been far more difficult than i anticipated.
          
          either way, Amelias pov will wrap up soon and i’ll probably take a small break from updating just to ensure i have a few more chapters of jaspers pov ready to go before i start posting his. i did decide that they would be in the same book just to keep things simpler for my brain!
          
          again thank you all so so so much, i love writing and seeing y’all binge read or read over a period of time is so cool for me to see. so thank you!
          
          if you’d like to know more about other stuff i have coming out eventually check my next announcement(s?).