#LexaDeservedBetter

I’m not angry anymore.
          Well, sometimes I am.
          I don’t think badly of you.
          Well, sometimes I do.

Ally I'm too scared to tell your momma I don't know where you've gone,
          And Ally I know you tear but I'm praying that you're holding on.
          And with God as my witness, if you can hear this song,
          Then you and I will find somewhere beautiful to rest your soul.

I'm bigger than my body.
          I'm colder than this home.
          I'm meaner than my demons.
          I'm bigger than these bones.
          And all the kids cried out,
          "Please stop, you're scaring me".
          I can't help this awful energy.
          Goddamn right, you should be scared of me.
          Who is in control?

Do you remember the taste of my lips.
          That night I stole a bit of my mother's perfume?
          'Cause I remember when my father put his fist.
          Through the wall that separated the dining room.
          And I remember the fear in your eyes.
          The very first time we snuck into the city pool.
          Late December with my heart in my chest and the clouds of my breath.
          Didn't know where we were running to.
          But don't look back.
          We'll be looking for sunlight.
          Or the headlights.
          Till our wide eyes burn blind.
          We'll be lacing the same shoes.
          That we've worn through.
          To the bottom of the line.
          And we know that we're headstrong.
          And our heart's gone.
          And the timing's never right.
          But for now let's get away.
          On a Roman holiday.

I'm a wanderess.
          I'm a one night stand.
          Don't belong to no city.
          Don't belong to no man.
          I'm the violence in the pouring rain.
          I'm a hurricane.

My neck, the feeling of your soft lips.
          Illuminated in the light,
          Bouncing off the exit signs.
          I missed.
          All we do is drive.
          All we do is think about the feelings that we hide.
          All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign.
          Sick and full of pride.
          All we do is drive.

The way we love, is so unique.
          And when we touch, I'm shivering.
          And no one has to get it.
          Just you and me.
          Cause we're just living.
          Between the sheets.

I like you a lot.
          Putting on my music while I'm watching the boys.
          So I do what you want.
          Singing soft grunge just to soak up the noise.
          Blue ribbons on ice.
          Playing their guitars, only one of my toys.
          'Cause I like you a lot.
          No holds barred, I've been sent to destroy, yeah.

And she lays down on her bedroom floor.
          The chemicals that make her laugh.
          Don't seem to be working anymore.
          She tries her best, but it hurts her chest.
          And even though her sun is gone.
          She lights like a child nevertheless.

Straight lines that unwind you.
          She does a little thing with her eye that says, "We're off soon."
          She says the bleeding's incidental 'cause she's so cool.
          She says it's no fun if you've only a bottle of wine.
          And now she's doing it all the time.