Grandma_hates_me

*sigh* 
          
          Chenqing when have you ever wronged me in any way? What makes you feel so guilty? 
          
          Lemme tell you that, I am going to wait for the day we meet again and I am going to hug you, hug you so close you can't escape until you've heard all of the love I have for you . . .
          
          How beautiful you are 
          How unique you are 
          How worthy of every ounce of love you are 
          
          I'll never ever forget you 
          Forever <3

I've been waiting for 4 months for you, I can wait a little more . . . . 
          
          Actually I can spend my entire life waiting for you <3

I am gonna keep posting here until you agree to talk to me 
          
          Jiejie, this is a little something I wrote 
          
          I am not afraid of your darkness
          I don't despise your flaws
          I rather adore your wrongness
          And the beauty each scar holds
          For me, you are a masterpiece
          So sophisticated
          So enchanting
          And so unapologetically unique
          Always morphing into beauty
          Blossoming into perfection
          And spiraling into limitless light 
          And so I am on a quest
          To find my muse
          Feed it my soul
          And let it reduce me
          Into scattered ashes 
          
          Hehehe I am not that good I know but it was inspired by you <3 
          I know I am undeserving of the title, but I call myself an artist 
          And once you become an artist's muse, they'll immortalize you 
          
          So if you're asking me to "forget you" I'm going to make sure not only me but the whole world remember your name 
          
          Try me

Nana . . . 
          Please read this, I don't know what have I done in my past to keep crossing paths with you, but . . . 
          
          Know that you, yes you
          All of you, yes all of you
          Every piece of you
          Every second of your story
          Every inch of your body
          Every branch of your history
          Every corner of your mind
          Is worth of deep, unwavering, soul-shaking, home-feeling love 
          
          Got it?

CHENQING I BEG OF YOU TO COME BACK 
          YOU CAN'T JUST LEAVE, I HAVE A LOT TO SAY TOO 
          
          I HAVE MISSED YOU ALL THIS WHILE, I'M FUCKING CRYING RN 
          PLEASE 
          I AM NOT ASKING YOU, I'M BEGGING 
          
          PLEASE, COME BACK 
          
          I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCHH, AND I AM NEVERRRR EVERRRRRR GIVING UP ON YOU 
          NEVER 
          
          PLEASE

In case you ever read this . . . 
          
          I hope. . .  I hope you are okay <3
          
          Don't interpret my little words as a lack of affection
           but . . . 
           I have found all words useless in describing how I feel about you disappearing every time. 
          
          Ilysm <33333333333333 Take care <333333333 
          
          And come back soon (that's just a selfish wish, I know that social media is toxic and that you deserve to have your own peace, and I also know that no matter how much you meant to me, I am just a stranger to you and you shouldn't feel pressured to stay )
          
          All I want is for you to live life happily cuz you are such a sweet person ~
          Forever my dear "nana" <3