Gray898

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Bruh everyone around me thinks I’m a dude , like I’m genuinely wondering if I’m gonna be alone all my life because I’m myself , I like masculine things but I’m a girl , I act a little boyish and dress mostly masculine but like that doesn’t make me any less of a girl, I’m still a girl underneath all I wear , I just hope I can find a dude that will appreciate me for me , and will be the one to take initiative and stuff and maybe help me embrace my feminine traits idk but like I wish I could wear what other girls wear but I can’t because it doesn’t look right on me. I genuinely feel no dudes gonna want me , and my type is like a manly dude so like I’m fucked because those types of dudes want feminine girls , not girls like me who are tomboys. I just want to feel loved and accepted already. 

Gray898

@SleepyJelly-n9 
          	  
          	  This makes a lot of sense , I also really crave that connection that lacks in my life like I just want that but it’s hard to get , I also appreciate your perspective and help ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 A person who will love you will be one who looks past all those things on the outer layers and straight into the heart. In your heart is what you know you are. People will force opinions and standards onto you and taint the outer reputation. There will be people who wont look in your direction and thats their choice but I can assure you there will be someone who will chose to give you a chance.
          	  
          	  The most important thing to remember is to not give up before things have gotten a chance to start. If you give up on yourself you only aim to sabatoge your future. Keep your that chin up with those hopes and walk with the confidence that these thoughts wont and I me WONT be strong enough to stop you.
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 I get how you feel with wanting to be loved and accepted now... But trust me right now at this age isnt as worth it as you think. I know from experience that wanting love to soon can leave you hurt far worse then when you started.
          	  
          	  Someone will love you but now isnt the appropriate time which is why it doesnt seem like it will be true. Things are conflicting at this age in time and thats perfectly normal but doesnt mean those nasty thoughts will be true. You're not fully out there in the world yet Gray so you dont actually know that nobody will want you so focus on the simpler picture now because trust me you will miss it if you dont embrace it now.
          	  
          	  Your options are very limited when you are young so of course it may feel like you are trapped in a bubble of social unacceptance. But you know who you are and you know you are capable. So these thoughts dont match up to what you know. Its just that little misfit on your shoulder telling you lies to make you feel unable to keep up with what society wants but thats not important in your life is it? Its not supposed to be. There will be plenty of guys who will grow to like a wide range of body types but young boys arent as open minded right now which is why its difficult. You have time so help yourself first and worry about guys later. 
          	  
          	  (Trust me you will rather date a guy when you are older because most are stupid and unattached when young)
          	  
          	  *More digital hugs*
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Gray898

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Bruh everyone around me thinks I’m a dude , like I’m genuinely wondering if I’m gonna be alone all my life because I’m myself , I like masculine things but I’m a girl , I act a little boyish and dress mostly masculine but like that doesn’t make me any less of a girl, I’m still a girl underneath all I wear , I just hope I can find a dude that will appreciate me for me , and will be the one to take initiative and stuff and maybe help me embrace my feminine traits idk but like I wish I could wear what other girls wear but I can’t because it doesn’t look right on me. I genuinely feel no dudes gonna want me , and my type is like a manly dude so like I’m fucked because those types of dudes want feminine girls , not girls like me who are tomboys. I just want to feel loved and accepted already. 

Gray898

@SleepyJelly-n9 
            
            This makes a lot of sense , I also really crave that connection that lacks in my life like I just want that but it’s hard to get , I also appreciate your perspective and help ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 A person who will love you will be one who looks past all those things on the outer layers and straight into the heart. In your heart is what you know you are. People will force opinions and standards onto you and taint the outer reputation. There will be people who wont look in your direction and thats their choice but I can assure you there will be someone who will chose to give you a chance.
            
            The most important thing to remember is to not give up before things have gotten a chance to start. If you give up on yourself you only aim to sabatoge your future. Keep your that chin up with those hopes and walk with the confidence that these thoughts wont and I me WONT be strong enough to stop you.
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 I get how you feel with wanting to be loved and accepted now... But trust me right now at this age isnt as worth it as you think. I know from experience that wanting love to soon can leave you hurt far worse then when you started.
            
            Someone will love you but now isnt the appropriate time which is why it doesnt seem like it will be true. Things are conflicting at this age in time and thats perfectly normal but doesnt mean those nasty thoughts will be true. You're not fully out there in the world yet Gray so you dont actually know that nobody will want you so focus on the simpler picture now because trust me you will miss it if you dont embrace it now.
            
            Your options are very limited when you are young so of course it may feel like you are trapped in a bubble of social unacceptance. But you know who you are and you know you are capable. So these thoughts dont match up to what you know. Its just that little misfit on your shoulder telling you lies to make you feel unable to keep up with what society wants but thats not important in your life is it? Its not supposed to be. There will be plenty of guys who will grow to like a wide range of body types but young boys arent as open minded right now which is why its difficult. You have time so help yourself first and worry about guys later. 
            
            (Trust me you will rather date a guy when you are older because most are stupid and unattached when young)
            
            *More digital hugs*
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Gray898

I’m really wondering if I should remove my book “saved” because idk man the misunderstandings that be happening with that book mind boggle me 
          T_T 
          
          Like all of my child reader books are literally platonic but some think it’s “weird” and stuff like dude it’s not weird , maybe your the one with the problem if you think it’s weird T-T 

SleepyJelly-n9

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@Gray898 Dont change or get rid of your things because people are to stupid to understand. You're not responsible for other peoples lack of braincells. If they cant understand then tell them to either figure their shit out or get off your books. People need to learn to rub two braincells together to create a single smart thought. -_- You shouldnt have to do the thinking for them.
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OGlitchtrap_readsO

@Gray898 i dont think you should, because it isn't hard to understand that it's not romantic but platonic.
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ThatswhaT_T

@Gray898 I mean if you really feel like people might misunderstand stuff then you could add like a disclaimer so people actually use their brains
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Gray898

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Not trump making their only he two genders like sir personally imo there’s three , male , female and intersex no? But why are we worry about what people identify down below but we not worrying about school shootings , health care and other REAL issues, let people fuck around and do what they want as long as they ain’t hurting no one or bothering anyone like tf  ? Why is that so hard 

OGlitchtrap_readsO

@Gray898 wait i thought he said that only the  female sex would be recognized?
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 We need the old men to croak n die already so we can have some fresh faces in office.
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Iluvfictional_men

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@Gray898 tbh trump doesn't have the mental capacity to understand how human anatomy works, much less the basics of how chromosomes' and shit affect the fetuses developing body. I'd be surprised if cheeto man could count to 10 without fucking up
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RatWithAGodComplex

POOOKIIIE IM SO SORRY I MISSED TO TELL YOU HAPPY BIRTHDAY ToT
          Ive been busy, but anyways, happy belated birthdaaaaay -3- <3

Gray898

@RatWithAGodComplex 
            
            THANK YOU ITS OKAY BOOKIE IVE BEEN BUSY TOO
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Gray898

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My fucking period came wtf WHY 
          
          like man the only person who I’d want to stop my period is frank castle or ghost like- 
          
          

Vicente_FrFr

@Gray898 BROOOO ME TOO I STARTED AT 18 SARTUDAY BRO, AND I STILL HAVE IT, why does period cramps exist like why bro
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OGlitchtrap_readsO

@Gray898 YEAH AND IM MAD ABOUT IT
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Gray898

@OGlitchtrap_readsO 
            
            DID OUR BLUE TOOTH DEVICES CONNECT ACCIDENTALLY??????
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Gray898

I’m having a internal battle , I love being masc and I’ve been presented like the for a long time but now anytime I wear anything remotely feminine people look at me funny as if I wasn’t a girl to begin with , people look at me first glance and think I’m a dude , I’m not , I’m female, I’m not trans , I’m just a girl. I wanna be feminine so badly but sometimes it just doesn’t suit me , but the times I do wear feminine stuff (which is rarely but I’m getting a bit more into it) people look at me like I just spread my asscheeks out in public , but I feel if I do start wearing more feminine clothes I’m gonna get judged and people will think I’m trans or nonbinary (which shouldn’t be a problem regardless even if I was I deserve to be treated with basic respect as for all those folks who are and basically just anyone should be treated with respect.) but it’s a difficult road 

Gothic-Babe

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@Gray898 sorry for not saying smthn sooner I'm going thru smthn rn and js decided to get on Wattpad. I was like that for a while the best that you can do is what you feel comfortable doing. If anyone tell you otherwise fuck them, and everyone they love because you have ppl who love you the way you are u silly bean
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Gray898

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@808dreams @SleepyJelly-n9 
            
            Thank you both so much this means a lot holy fuck balls I wanna cry T-T <3 ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 Best you can do is be who you chose to be. It will never matter what those people think! Besides you will more then likely not know those people as time goes on so who cares right? The more you be yourself the more others will be used to it and not pay attention to it as much. If someone mistakes you for something and they are polite when corrected then at least you know they arent trying to purposefully be rude but if its the opposite then you know what kind of person they are. 
            
            You know who you are and thats all that matters.
            
            Your beautiful in any way you chose to present yourself and if others cant understand that then good riddens.
            
            *Digital hugssssss*
            
            
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Gray898

Hehehehreheheheheheheh
          
          What’s up peoples ??????

gvancaknow

I'm tweaking as always
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SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 Keep pullin through you're doin great (´∀`)♡
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Gray898

Daily check in!!!
          
          Sorry I haven’t been on much I’ve been dealing with a lot lately but managed to write some more today :) 
          I just wanted to check in on yall to see how you all are doing 

SleepyJelly-n9

@Gray898 Winter break needs to be lonnngggeeerrrr
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SleepyJelly-n9

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@Gray898 I DIDNT GET A NOTIFICATION. Im ok my anxiety has gotten worse cuz Im fucked up but its not to bad. Im mostly just mad I had to go back to school again after break ':(
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