Hi, I'm gonna rant about my feelings. So I'm ending the school year with the fact that I won't see most of my teachers and friends ever again. Usually, at the end of the year I would go to all of my teachers and tell them thank you for teaching me and supporting me and things like that. So instead I wrote all of them emails today. Most of them got back to me, and I just read them, and now it's the middle of the night and I'm crying in my bed. I wish that I could talk to them and meet them in real life, and give them hugs and handshakes and cards, but instead I'm left writing emails and drowning in my sorrow in the middle of the night trying not to wake my family. I wish that we could just go back to the old days and see our friends, family, and teachers, and be able to hug them normally and be able to do what we used to.
My life has been a blur for the past 3 months now, my mind thinks that it's still the middle of March, but now it's like, late May, and it's all coming back and hitting me full force like a train. I wish that there were more things that I could do, anything to thank my teachers, and you guys, for supporting me and leading me in the right direction. I hope that you guys are coping with this better, and I hope that all of you are doing alright. Now I'm just listening to depressing music and reading emails that make me more depressed, and I'm thinking about all of the memories that I made with my friends and teachers, and now I'm just falling into this endless pit of depression. I'm sure that I'll be fine in the morning because once I vent, I'm usually fine for another week or so, and then I'll into my pillow in the middle of the night and I'll be fine again for another week.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I am crying and I needed to talk about it, so I did. Thanks for reading this, even though it's just a bunch of crap. I'll try to update soon, but now I'm gonna cry. Thank you for everything, you mean the world to me. So yeah...
- Gracely