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Hi everyone. TRIGGER WARNING. (vent.)
Idk how to say this but Im go I ng through a lot right now. I have a crush on my coworker, Im losing everyone I love, and I feel like shit. Idk if Im a boy or a girl but as of now I think Im just a demiboy. Im sorry for not checking in on any of you but Im struggling to take care of myself. I am absolutely disgusting, I haven't showered in 6 days, I haven't brushed my teeth in 10 days, and my room smells horrid. The only reason Im getting out of bed is to eat some shitty food and ignore my needs. I can't do anything in school bc Im too selfish and I can't accept that Im failing EVERYTHING amd that I need to fucking do my work or I wont graduate high-school. My ex gf is spreading rumors about me and all my friends are leaving me telling me I am an awful person and I will admit, I do have attachment issues. I am overbearing. Im clingy. I am insecure. I am ugly. I am weird. I am a horrible boyfriend. And I know Im a terrible person. And Im sorry that I can't do enough to keep you happy, amd Im sorry that I can't stfu. I probably wont log back on for another month so if you need me I can't help you. Im sorry. </3