I need some tea

friendly reminder that my partner is literally the best peraon ever and if youre mean to then that means youre being mean to the sweetest best most amazing and kind darling ever and i do not like you
          (hi baby)

i feel disgusting
          
          i moghtve lost thw one thing i hold closest to me and all i cam fucking do is hate
          
          i see people going about their daily routine and being happy and i fucking resent them for it
          
          my pain and potential grief isnt theirs and i fucking know that but  jesus FUCK I JUST FUCKING HATE WVERYONE FOR HAVING NORMAL LIVES WHEN I CANT EVEN PUT MY PHONE DOWN FOR FIBE FUCKING SECONDS WITHOUT BURSTING INTO TEARSAND FEELING LILE MY GODDAMN CHEST IS CAVING IN ON ITSELF
          
          ITA MY FUCKING FAULT
          
          I WASNT THERE WNOUGHT
          
          I 
          
          im
          i just want them to answer me
          please
          this time feela too real
          they shouldve been awake three fucking hours ago
          
          im so fucking scared
          please
          please please please
          i vant lose you
          i cant do this without you
          please

impure regression sucks

imagine being a piece of shit boyfriend just because your partner responded to you with 'mhm' and it reminded you of some issues you had a while back so you just snap and turn into a fucking horrible person to them when they did nothing to deserve it

damn i cant believe i havent opened wattpad since last year.

my stepdad just got mad at me bc i admitted i ate a //tiny// bit of the fat that got cut off the roast (because its the only part of tge roast with any flavor bc my family dont use fucking seasoning), and when he tried to give me the "thats unhealthy" talk i just fired back with "so are cigarettes, and you promised me two years go you'd quit smoking them and yet you have been to the store twice in just as many days to buy yourself a new pack."
          
          he acts like he dont know im 19 and it would be funny if it werent for the fact that the man just CANT pick his battles ffs. 

i was talking with a friend and i had an idea for a rp
          
          this is more aimed towards my dsmp ppl, but its more specifically ppl who watch the tom simons vlogs-

fudkfuckfufk ufk i kwep fuckimg eberything up 

guess who predicted how my day went in the last post? (spoiler  its me)
          
          guess who is, also as predicted, still really fucking sad about it? (spoiler again, also me)

wonder if any of my irla will remember its my birthday today...
          
          tbh considering my family forgot, probably not.
          
          wont stop me from being sad when none of them wish me happy birthday even though i have all their birthdays memorized and got my four closest irls gifts this last time for their birthdays
          
          oh well