Grim_the_little
this message may be offensive
(Vent, trigger warning :self harm stabbing and maybe more? Read at your own risk I suppose)
Dear dad,
Can I ask you something? I heard you live somewhere with a new woman, I heard that you are taking care of 4 kids, are you happy? No more importantly, what did they have that I didn't? I know I'm not the perfect child or that I'm probably not what you wanted but... What do they have that I don't? Do they behave more? Do they act nicer? Do they not have as many disorders? Do they not remind you of my mother? Did you not want me? Or did I remind you of her, why did you not even make an effort? Mom has, mom changed, mom stayed, where are you..? Did you stop drugs? Did you stop drinking? Do you have a job? Can we meet? Did you know I still love you? Did you know I would cry for hours in bed thinking of the ways I messed up or why I drove you and mom away, did you know that by 10 I cut, did you know that by 11 things went down hill and I started to have a cutting addiction? Did you know that by 12 I found my first true love? Did you know that by 13 I found out how to draw more blood when cutting? Did YOU KNOW that it took them UNTIL I WAS FUCKING 12 TO REALIZE I HAD DEPPRSSION? DID YOU KNOW THAT I have feared for my life and safety so so many times? Did you know that your sons fight all the time? Did you know they tried to stab each other? Did you know that one went to the hospital again? Did you know I have been to the hospital before? Did you know I realized I wanted to marry someone? I hope you have now, one last thing, did you know that after all this time that I still love you?
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Grim_the_little
Dad.... I love you, I don't need you to say it back to me, I just need you to say goodbye, you didn't say it when you disappeared so I keep getting the false hope that you might come back, that's all I ask, just say goodbye?
