God Knows I Tried

"People come and go. Some are cigarette breaks, others are forest fires. You were a raging forest fire, burning me relentlessly. Now I'm just a vast wasteland of scorched land with ashes and burned down trees covering me."

You want the sad truth?
          Even if I forget you, 
          I'll always miss you.

No bullet could ever destroy my heart like you did.

It isn't over for me. It never will be.

The funny thing is, is that my addiction isn't alcohol, or meth, or cocaine. It's something much than worse. It's YOU.

"I pushed everyone else away because they weren't you."

And after all this time I haven't been alright since we said goodbye.

A friend asked me if I still miss her, and I stopped for a second and hundreds of memories played back in my head. "I think, part of me will always miss her" I said, "and it still hurts you know? After all this time, it still hurts. I guess it always will."

"If only you knew how much those little moments with you mattered to me."

You were my soulmate, but I was not yours.