GuardianLugia8

So uh, it will take some time before I actually update any of my books here since my OCD is acting up again and my mental state isn't the best right now. It's so hard for me right now even though this is a good time to write, but it's mostly spent on me looking at the doujins that is my theme. As for the doujin, it a "Fairy Hunting series by Raiha" and it's something I read a long time back.
          	
          	My OCD decided to use my memory apparently to find something that I didn't even remember reading anymore and uses it to torture me now. So yeah, not the best thing for me, and since you guys are the only ones who actually know I'm suffering from this since no one IRL knows that I am actually dealing with a mental illness. Of course, it's not professionally recognised since I didn't go to a psychiatrist, but you get what I mean.
          	
          	So yeah, not doing so well. And Fairy Tail is a good series, very angry to see such a series being used for an NTR esque doujin

Umondo

@GuardianLugia8 
          	  Rest and take care of yourself. 
          	  We will pray for you. Amen
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GuardianLugia8

So uh, it will take some time before I actually update any of my books here since my OCD is acting up again and my mental state isn't the best right now. It's so hard for me right now even though this is a good time to write, but it's mostly spent on me looking at the doujins that is my theme. As for the doujin, it a "Fairy Hunting series by Raiha" and it's something I read a long time back.
          
          My OCD decided to use my memory apparently to find something that I didn't even remember reading anymore and uses it to torture me now. So yeah, not the best thing for me, and since you guys are the only ones who actually know I'm suffering from this since no one IRL knows that I am actually dealing with a mental illness. Of course, it's not professionally recognised since I didn't go to a psychiatrist, but you get what I mean.
          
          So yeah, not doing so well. And Fairy Tail is a good series, very angry to see such a series being used for an NTR esque doujin

Umondo

@GuardianLugia8 
            Rest and take care of yourself. 
            We will pray for you. Amen
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GuardianLugia8

I'm stressed! I'm so f*king stressed! My OCD is acting up again and I am so gah! I started stress eating for God's sake! It's about a doujin I read years ago "Fairy Hunting series by Raiha", do not recommend it as it can be seen as NTR, which is based on Fairy Tail and I hate it. And guess what, my OCD chose it as a theme and has been torturing me with it and I'm stressed about it.
          
          I can't even write anything clearly since my head is filled with its compulsions and I am mostly just reading, watching and just trying to find ways to spend time and it's gaaah!
          
          I WANT TO SMASH ON THE WALL JUST SO THIS STOPS PERMANENTLY! ITS SO F*CKING PROBLEMATIC AND ITS AFFECTING MY MENTAL STATE FOR GOD!!!

GuardianLugia8

@CaughtYouLacking67 look. It doesn't matter if I use the internet or not. My OCD is using things in my memory! I didn't even remember the doujin before it suddenly came to the front of my mind!
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CaughtYouLacking67

@GuardianLugia8 Jesus dude, you might need a break from the internet
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GuardianLugia8

Hey guys, it's been a long time. I have been very slow in my updates I'm sure, the last one was my Neverness To Everness fic, and it's kind of hard.
          
          Irl is hard as you already know, but my mental health isn't that great, I mean, my Pure-O OCD is still affecting me but I think I am healing.
          
          I don't know how many times I have said the same sentence about healing from it, my mental state isn't exactly great so my writing has also been affected as well. Now I spend a lot of time just reading, playing, watching, distracting myself you know, cause it helps with my OCD.
          
          And I can't try to meet with a psychiatrist because mental problems have stigma where I'm from and giving any hint of it would make me seen as crazy or insane, and my family would say that I would be put in an asylum for revealing that or going to a psychiatrist.
          
          Hell, I don't even know if there is psychiatrist who can identify it, the one who I did speak to, even though I told her the symptoms and named it, dismissed it and said that I was fine even though I knew I was not, so yeah, not that great 
          
          I do want to write more, but not right now and there are many of my stories which I might not update since I made them when I was young and my outlooks changed and my literal mind is not working properly and making me depressed and the like
          
          So yeah, it's a problem, it's calm, mostly, but I am hoping that I won't have to deal with anymore

Crocsh0w0

It’s all right, bro just take your time also don’t do much stories sometimes you it’s gonna be hard for you to update them since you’re gonna be making new ones. Just take it slow focus on something important in IRL and continue all right. Mental health is also needed so focus on that first Alr and please take care of yourself
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AgentVick

@GuardianLugia8 That okay bro take your time and take care of yourself.
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