Hey guys, it's been a long time. I have been very slow in my updates I'm sure, the last one was my Neverness To Everness fic, and it's kind of hard.
Irl is hard as you already know, but my mental health isn't that great, I mean, my Pure-O OCD is still affecting me but I think I am healing.
I don't know how many times I have said the same sentence about healing from it, my mental state isn't exactly great so my writing has also been affected as well. Now I spend a lot of time just reading, playing, watching, distracting myself you know, cause it helps with my OCD.
And I can't try to meet with a psychiatrist because mental problems have stigma where I'm from and giving any hint of it would make me seen as crazy or insane, and my family would say that I would be put in an asylum for revealing that or going to a psychiatrist.
Hell, I don't even know if there is psychiatrist who can identify it, the one who I did speak to, even though I told her the symptoms and named it, dismissed it and said that I was fine even though I knew I was not, so yeah, not that great
I do want to write more, but not right now and there are many of my stories which I might not update since I made them when I was young and my outlooks changed and my literal mind is not working properly and making me depressed and the like
So yeah, it's a problem, it's calm, mostly, but I am hoping that I won't have to deal with anymore