GuardianLugia8

Hello there @GuardianLugia8

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actualiza Tensura: Holy Emperor

When did my Wattpad account become a place for me to vent? I spend more time trying to find ways to deal with my OCD and the related anxiety and other negative emotions and find some enjoyment to cope with the stress and other things that my writing has been impacted by it.
          
          Heck, even now I'm having to deal with it, the compulsion with things from the past that I have seen, which also includes normal anime, images and of course NTR doesn't help. 
          
          I am not able to write as much as I can and I am feeling a pain in my chest as if something heavy is in it and that it's burning or something. God, I feel awful, and I haven't done anything bad to others and yet this is my life. I thought it had eased up only for it to flare up again and now I am wasting a lot of my time ruminating over it and by trying to find ways to deal with it, and it's driving me insane
          
          F***, and here I am venting it here when I could've written something, but no I can get a peace of mind due to my Pure-O OCD
          
          Sorry about this all of you, I wish I was of sound mind

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Where's shinza bansho at want continue reincarnated shinza bansho

Ugh. What has happened to me? I used to be able to write three or four chapters in a week! But now I'm barely doing one!
          
          Where did all my energy go, and this blasted OCD is not helping in the slightest, I've also lost a lot of confidence as well and life sucks 
          
          I want to write more but I can't find the energy or motivation for it, God what has become of my life
          
          I really want to update some fics I really do, but I'm not feeling good about it, ugh this is a pain

Hey I read your Shikimori NTR story and it gave me the inspiration to write or at least imagine a scenario where an OC of mine in the Persona universe and his group of Phantom Thieves help him with the bullies and both Izumi and Shikimori awaken Personas and become temporary members of the group to help take down the bullies Shadows. If you’d like to know more then let me know

So, an update on my mental situation, apparently I didn't know that much about Pure-O as I had thought, because OCD is a bit different than I had thought, it's not just a mental health condition 
          
          Apparently, it is also considered to be neurodivergent due to the fact that the brain is wired differently than normal people, and while it's not concrete, apparently OCD falls under this category 
          
          And now that I think about it, I had always been thinking about and imagining things that I have seen or heard from when I was young, perhaps it was always there but only become strong after these years. 
          
          Basically, I'm saying that I am like this because my brain's neurobiological connections are not like normal people's which causes me to have it or develop it overtime, at least that's what I have managed to understand to an extent. 
          
          Honestly, there isn't much info about this unfortunately due to its nature which sucks, and this also puts into perspective all the imagining that I had done in the past. The difference being is that I had consumed a lot of negative content these past few years and now it's being used as fuel

I know this won't goes into your ears but, calm down man, i know it's and all but try something that can calm your mind and mostly avoid ntrs as much and looks for mostly vanilla only, maybe not effective but it can temporarily calming it down