When you feel like one of your last closest and only friends is drifting away from you and doesn't want to be your friend anymore so you are terrified which causes a panic attack and alot of crying and mind running but you are too scared to say anything to them-
Don't you just
Love it when your thoughts start getting loud
You want help but you don't reach out
As to not bother anyone
You know everyone you trust is dealing with their own problems and you don't wanna open up to put more on them
Or
You afraid it might push them away more
Or
That you're being selfish for letting your feelings show when you're supposed to help others
So you just wanna curl up and cry until you can't anymore and sometimes wish you wanna just
Stop existing so you make sure you don't cause any more problems for anyone else
Maybe if you lost your emotions or could keep everything bottled up than you would be a better friend and could help them out to the best you can?
Totally not me...
Haha...
Whoever I talk to please read
Things have been getting worse at home
Emotionally and financially
Its been really stressful so I don't know how often I will be responding right now
It will vary between many things
Just letting you all know now