Murray

Friends have came and gone and outgrown this beautiful platform. 
          I believe it is finally my time to part as well.
          
          After 5 amazing years, I’m at a point in my life where I can confidently say that I’m at peace with my mind, and in all honesty have no reason to remain here any longer. This platform was my anchor for sanity back in COVID, and for the people who chose to stand by me in those days, I’m forever grateful. 
          
          But I’m at peace. 
          I’m at peace with letting go.
          
          It has been truly amazing, and to anyone reading this…
          Thank you.
          
          Thank you for breathing today.
          
          And thank you for choosing to witness me.
          
          I love you.
          
          
          It’s been the best of times, and the worst of times. But lovely all the same.
          
          May your time here bring you joy and comfort. A thousand blessings to you.
          
          And with that, I finally retire the name “Gumnny_fans.”
          
          With love forever,
          
          Murray

I’ve always been fascinated by the incredibly complex subject of learning.
          
          I suppose it only stems from my eagerness to become more than I am today, and exceed what I wish to embody tomorrow.
          
          The Greeks, the Romantics, The Transcendentalists, Jesus Christ of Nazareth and the Christian Disciples, the Revolutionaries, the Nihilists, the Cynical, the Stoics, the Existentialists.
          
          So much perspective, so many thoughts, so many ideas and theories. I want to know them all.
          
          I lack a peer to discuss these beautifully complex topics with. I falter under note-taking. While writing things down does, in fact, aid my retaining of memory, I’ve come to believe it holds no experience behind the action.
          
          Truly, I ask you, what meaning does action  hold should there be no conflict.
          
          I believe in the notion that every action has an equal counter action. Life is duality, and opposition is what grants value and meaning unto the great privilege of all this world gives.

Sometimes, I hate being a romantic.
          
          It’s something everyone says they look for, everyone says they want in a partner, but they never consider it when looking.
          
          I hate how much I can love because I’ve fallen for one girl for more than 2 years.
          
          We were never more than friends.
          
          And only now, as I’ve entered my final year of high school, has it dawned upon me that this very well may be our final year together, even as friends.
          
          She’s a different person than when I first loved her. I recognize that.
          
          I am too. But, she’s the one thing that remains constant to me.
          
          Maybe she always will be.
          
          
          
          
          Maybe I’m just not her type. Maybe I never was. Maybe I never will be.
          
          But that doesn’t matter to me now. 
          Because I know, at the end of each passing day, I would be there for her.
          
          I’ll imagine we fell in love.
          
          But I’ll know that, even if she never has or never will feel the same; I loved her. With all my heart.
          
          Always, and forevermore.

I think, you know you truly love someone
          when you aren’t angry after they break your heart.
          
          
          10 months, 9 days
          44 weeks
          313 days
          
          That was my longest relationship.
          
          But my longest love?
          
          1,024 days
          Around 146 weeks
          33 and 1/2 months
          2 years, 9 months, and 18 days
          
          and counting

Nevermind

I’ve convinced a stranger to hang on for one more day today.
          
          I’m so proud of him.

Yeah so I binged the whole show in 3 days..

Have you guys ever watched anime?
          Am I the only one who never had until yesterday?

I am nothing in my soul if not obsessive.
          

5 amazing years on this wonderful platform, thank you for being here with me <3