Hi everyone. Thank you for checking up on me. I've read all of them and dms in my Instagram as well. I'm truly sorry for not updating the story for almost a year now. And even now, I'm selfishly writing this post just to vent because let's just say "Life is imitating art." and I don't have any other place to express myself. These are the frustrations I've carried for years. I tried to suppress them for the sake of peace in my family, but I cannot keep adjusting my life for people who just take and take. I was someone who believed that family is above everything else, but now I see that I've been a fool all these years. Whether it be the time and attention of my parents or money, I've always compromised for the sake of my sibling. I stayed out of trouble and never demanded more than what was given to me so that I do not add on to their tension. And why is it that the parents always give more attention to the troublesome child? When asked, they say, "We love both of you equally, but we never have to worry about you." So is punishment the reward for being good? Why can't parents see that they are enabling the selfish behavior of their children by staying silent for the sake of "peace in the family"? Peace at my expense? And it's not like the troublesome child ever realizes the sacrifices made by their parents or siblings for them and are grateful. Never. Imagine my anger they attempted to gaslight our parents by saying that it's me who has always been favored by them. When I asked to back up their statement with proof, silence. As I pushed multiple times, they snapped and started shouting and cursing me saying, "You'll never be happy in your life...blah blah." Falling out with a sibling is difficult, but I think I have put myself first now. I clearly see that nobody will, not even my parents, but I have to. Anyway, so all of this has been happening for the past few months. Now, I'm ready to get back on track, whether it’s writing, studies, hobbies, or life in general.
