emma is epic

Lowkey rewriting a scene from my last fic in this bitch, hoping to god this won't become a trend in ALL my crossover fics (x_x)

Ngl this fic is getting longer than i anticipated, i usually try to stop when i reach about 7 or 8 pages in my notes app but this chapter is currently 11 pages long.
          
          I WOULD cut it up and make the fic THREE chapters but in all honesty i'm at like, the second to last scene and i kinda don't care anymore.

Out of context fanfic plot point of the whenever-the-fuck:
          
          Pinkie pie refers to a bunch of highschoolers killing each other as "koo-koo crazy banana zany"

I'm starting to think that the reason why i'm procrastinating so much on my fic is NOT because i'm lazy, or have a short attention span or whatever...but because i have a lot of other things on my to-do list after this and i'm just overwhelmed...

Ngl i'm hoping i can finish up this second chapter before the end of the month :P
          
          I wanna participate in the monthly art challenge on sheezy.art but i usually try not to partake in my other hobbies when i'm writing a story so that i don't get distracted (>.< )

Ngl as i'm writing this next scene i'm starting to realize how funny this story kinda is out of context
          
          Like i'm really out here writing a fanfiction where fucking GUNDHAM TANAKA explains danganronpa lore to fluttershy while he braids her hair lmaooooooo

Ngl it's kinda funny how much my writing has improved ever since i realized i could project my mental issues onto characters. I've just recently re-read a small bit of ludicrous life and while the way i wrote hat kid WAS based on myself and my experiences with social anxiety (because she was my comfort character at the time and looks kinda like me IRL) her characterization was very stiff and kinda unrealistic but in my more recent work, mundane believers, pretty much most of the second half of the story was just me venting through khilana, cierra and weedix and ngl it made the story a whole lot better (albeit i WILL admit there are a lot of flaws)
          
          Now emotions are like, my most favorite thing to write

After 5 pages, i've FINALLY finished writing the very first scene of chapter 2!!! Only 3 or 4 more to go!!! Wish me luck ^^

Lowkey kinda disappointed i had to cut out a piece of dialogue from pony waifu that i really liked...
          
          I had plans on having the mystery reveal character find the DVD case and roast the shit out of gundham for being a brony (nothing against bronies, i'm literally a pegasister. I was just REALLY proud of that line and it felt really in-character) but i had to cut it because it'd make what'd happen afterwards not make sense :T

Been having trouble writing chapter 2, fall and winter are always tough for me mental health-wise. My anxiety has been flaring up ESPECIALLY bad lately (i've taken some meds earlier but idk if they're working) dunno when it's gonna stop (x_x)
          
          Kinda wish i didn't get body cramps when i'm anxious bc it makes me panic and think i have some kind of disease which just makes my anxiety worse :/