H3llzang3lz

F - Feelings
          I - Inside
          N - Not
          E - Expressed

Ugh! So annoying! My wattpad app hates me and its so annoying! Like... Ugh... My notifications are fucked up it says I have notifications when I already looked at them and know I don't! Ugh... 

Been up all night so far... Now it's storming and I know I'm not getting to sleep... I'm worried about someone... I can't sleep... I feel like everything is gonna fall into pecies... For those of you wondering, yes I'm back with her. I'm not cheating on her or using her. I genuinely love her. She's the best SO (significant other) I could ever ask for... I don't know what'd I do without her... I love her so much... I hope she's okay... I really need her right now... I tried to wake her but gave up... She needs the sleep. If she's even asleep... She said she couldn't sleep... I only pray she managed to fall asleep... I love her. I really do. And I plan to lover her until I die. No matter what. Bye my nuggets. 

I should just be dead and forgotten about... 

Migraine... Fucking sucks. 

So... I'm happy. I broke up with him and her and I are... Idk, we have no title. But, we do the coupely stuff and we of course have fun with it, I'll be honest and she knows this... I'm terrified of hurting her, I'm scared I'm gonna do or say something wrong, but I'm slowly coming back to normal, I'm still not full on sexual stuff but... I'll let some things go that her and I have done before, and of course we rp! Which is fun and helps me take my mind off things and... Just forget about my problems, and of course going through the process of break up she's always right there for me, not at the moment but that's okay. I love her and I always will. No matter what we go through, I will always be by her side. Through everything. And until the day we meet and after. I pray to be by her side forever. Even if we're just friends and aren't dating, I'm fine as long as I know she's happy and healthy. Anyway, I wanted to give a small update on me and my life. Anyway, bye my nuggets! Love ya all! 

Sooooo, some may be wondering why I deleted all my books.... I'm done with them, their boring, it's boring to do now, I know I'm never gonna update them so why keeps them? Anyway, I'll be writing more, I'm on summer break, I might get a schedule, I don't know yet, anyways, bye guys! 

I'm done. I'm done with everything... I wanna die... 

.................................................................................................Can I die already.............................? 

Soo... I put myself in between a rock and a hard place... My boyfriend who is in person or... My "ex" who... I was dating for almost 7 months... I don't know... I love her but... I really like him... I admit he's not always like she was... She was always there for me when I needed her... She still is... She's the sweetest and best.... He's not anything like that... But... He's a guy... It makes my parents and family happy to see me with a guy... I want them happy but... I also wanna be happy, I like them both alot... I don't know who to pick... I have a few more weeks... Like... 3 or so... Then I have to pick... I'm not her and I on a break forever... I have to pick eventually... But... If I pick him... It worries me that I'll lose her... If I pick her... It upsets everyone I know... Including him... I want to see him happy to... What do I do...?