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shids and kills you 

it feels bad. my wrist feels weak af. my eyes kinda aches. im crying again. losing hope to do things again. feels like shit. until when will i do it over and over again. im starting to think of dark thoughts again.

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why do i have to live wtf its not even my choice to exist

Are you feeling confused and lost lately, Virgo? You’re not alone! The tides are looking messy for your star sign today. Now is the time for you to focus on yourself, and try not to worry about other people.

i'm just gonna dump this here. i feel like crying again. i don't know, i just feel like crying everytime i think of research. i feel like i have no hopes on continuing it anymore. that im still a disappointment. im still not ok at some point. im so tired of being a leader again. i want them to carry me. i feel so jealous of being with irish and lhei cuz they have good research. annika can do most stuffs without worrying. it was nice for them. it was so smooth sailing. theyre all happy. im not. i have a group to carry. and im carrying it so bad. i want to rest from carrying. i give everything for this group. they say to not stress myself but how???? im the one making shots for this group. i am the one they rely on cuz ik most of the things. but now i totally have no fucking idea and so depress about it, i have to force myself to get better. i want to fucking rest as a leader for petes sake. i just wsnt to rest now.. please i fucking i hate this....

they didnt know im too tired to feel :thumbs up:

i hate fucking quarantine. i hate the fucking government for having online class. i hate fkn marcelo for having research. i hate the decision of my parent to make me go through this. i hate myself for not improving. i hate mysf for being so average. i hate myself for being so lazy. i hate myself for being so wasteful. i hate my myself for not choosing a better group.i hate myself for settling less on shit topic. i hate myself.

it feels like shit. i alrdy found myself and what i want to do.  but research i hate it so much. it i want to give up alrdy. i feel so hopeless and tired. i hate it. im still talentless as fk and im abt ti shit research up.