Hello.
Its been a month since my last update chapter. A lot of things happened during the month of November, although it wasn't in the right state of mind when I wrote that messages and comments I just want to thank you all from the bottom of my heart. I had the courage of looking through them and they brought me to tears, I was and still am not at the right state of mind to be writing a new chapter. Im a lot better now, I had a lot of lows throughout the time I sent the update but I am better now; well I'm just okay. Coming on wattpad the first time I decide to write a book, a book where my imagination could rode free. At the time I was just writing for the benefit of my imagination, unexpectedly the new count started to increase slowly and steadily, and soon I had multiple readers coming back for more. It sounds cringe but the fame got to me. Soon enough I got multiple people reading my silly little fanfic I wrote in my spare time.
I guess it started when I hit 100K reads, im a type of person that would be paranoid over the silliest comment but soon it got to my head. I lost interest in writing, I would always hear this little voice inside of my mind telling me how my book was trash, unoriginal, bland etc.
People who were reading the book since the very start knows that I would write new chapters almost every single day but now I wouldn't even publish a new chapter for over a month or even more.
I guess I noticed how fanfics with a big reader count never finishing the fanfic, and I believe that im not the only one. I get scared posting a new chapter, I would stare and refresh my laptop just to see if there was any bad comments or mistakes I made. Don't get me wrong I love this fanfic with all my heart, although sometimes I would cringe at my very first few chapters, I don't think I would ever stop writing!
You won't be hearing from me till the new year! so have a happy newer everyone! I hope 2021 would be a less sucky year than 2020 ever was
-violet