HadesSon2010

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I don't even know what's real and what's in my head anymore, I feel like I'm drowning in my own thoughts.
          	
          	Why do I always ruin good things? I push people away or ghost them randomly because talking to actual people has started making me feel like a disappointment and I don't know how to act anymore and it makes me have anxiety attacks. 
          	
          	I just want one night where I don't start crying after I wake up from a dream, just one fucking night.
          	
          	Why am I like this?

Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010, everything is going to get better. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always open. No pressure, though, because I know talking to people can be difficult at times. Hope everything is okay soon
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HadesSon2010

this message may be offensive 
I don't even know what's real and what's in my head anymore, I feel like I'm drowning in my own thoughts.
          
          Why do I always ruin good things? I push people away or ghost them randomly because talking to actual people has started making me feel like a disappointment and I don't know how to act anymore and it makes me have anxiety attacks. 
          
          I just want one night where I don't start crying after I wake up from a dream, just one fucking night.
          
          Why am I like this?

Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010, everything is going to get better. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm always open. No pressure, though, because I know talking to people can be difficult at times. Hope everything is okay soon
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HadesSon2010

Does anyone want to be a beta reader for Fever Burn?? I'm working on a chapter right now and i need to know if it's good before I publish it. If you want to, just reply to this and I'll send you the chapter via private messaging. :)

Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010 okay, I can do that
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HadesSon2010

@Isimpforbokuto yeah basically, but you don't have to fix them, just point them out and I'll do it. Once I finish the chapter I'm working on I'll send it to you :) All I really need is feedback on if it's a good chapter in your opinion and what you like/dislike about it. Thanks :)
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Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010 does beta reading mean you just go through and edit any mistakes? I can do that if you don't already have someone
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HadesSon2010

So a lot of you have been asking me to update Fever Burn, and I feel guilty for leaving it unfinished with a lot of you reading it. I know how annoying it is to find a good book and then the author never updates. I haven't updated since last year so sorry for that. I've had a lot going on with school starting back up, my grandma getting sick and dying, and now volleyball is starting soon, so I haven't had lots of free time. I've also started posting on tiktok (you don't get my @ sorry) and stuff.
          
          So I am happy to announce that I will be working on it again. 
          
          I have a love hate relationship with it but recently I've gotten motivation to update and write. I don't know when I'll actually post it but hopefully it's soon. It might take a while tho so don't get your hopes up.
          
          Anyways, I hope you have/had a good day/night. Take care and make sure you eat. ❤❤❤

HadesSon2010

@Isimpforbokuto Thank you :)
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Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010 I'm sorry for everything that has happened :(
            Please don't update if you don't have the motivation to. Nobody should pressure you to do something if you don't feel like doing it.
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HadesSon2010

Hey guys, I'm alive. I'm sorry I haven't posted or updated my stories, and I haven't been here for a month or so. School has been really hard lately and I have some mental issues I'm dealing with so I haven't had the time or motivation to get on here and update. I'll try to update Fever Burn but i'm not promising anything. Thank you for being patient and caring about my well being. :)

Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010 :)
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HadesSon2010

WE WON OUR VOLLEYBALL GAME WOOOOH I didn't get to play but I'm still really happy.

HadesSon2010

thank you guys =D
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Isimpforbokuto

@HadesSon2010 congrats :)
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T0D0r0k1_S1mP

@HadesSon2010 AYE CONGRATS!
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HadesSon2010

Apparently you're not allowed to have friends in school anymore. When I left to go to my bus I hugged my boyfriend, we literally only hugged basically, and my mom just got a call from one of my teachers saying we weren't allowed to show any signs of affection and we weren't allowed to hug. I hate this goddamn school.

HadesSon2010

exactly. I have ADHD and it's hard for me to concentrate and hear sometimes and I'm too afraid now to ask what the teacher said since last year I got a lot of negative reactions for that
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meltedKitKatkitty

@HadesSon2010 and most public schools have a "one size fits all" mindset. They do not slow down for physically/mentally disabled students who can't take in information like other people can.
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HadesSon2010

@meltedKitKatkitty Zucchini is fantastic. My mom makes Zucchini bread sometimes and it's amazing
            
            Public school is definitely not the best way to teach kids things. There are so many rules and the subjects are boring unless the teachers make something fun to do. You're also forced to get up early and then ur tired when you get to school and you don't learn as well. They really need a better system.
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