Hey guys... I owe u an explanation as to why I have been away for nearly 4 months. Firstly, as many of u may already possibly know, someone who I went to school with, and grew up in the same grade as his younger brother. Was diagnosed with Edwing Saracoma cancer at the age of 18. (his name is Cameron by the way). There has been many mis-diagnosis, suffering, recovery, etc since then. Cam has been encouraging and inspiring the lives of many who are going through similar situations. (if you would like to see his journey, contact me and I will give u the link for his sisters blog about Camerons cancer journey). He just recently had a nine hour surgery to remove the cancer, which went very successfully might I add, & he is so much stronger then I ever imagined him to be. The second reason I have been gone, is because I just recently moved across the country, which is not an easy process. I have been in the moving mindset & was focused on finishing the school year as well. Now the final & most vital reason why I have been gone is. My favorite musician of all time, Christina Grimmie. Was shot & killed at her meet & greet in Orlando, (the night before the Orlando shooting). She was only 22 years old. It has been so much harder for me to deal with, then I ever thought possible. My world has not been, nor I think ever will be the same. I have loved her since I was 11, I am now 16. And it still honestly feels like a nightmare that I haven't woken up from. Because of these 3 reasons, my motivation was lost, & I tried reading books about motivation to try & get myself on the right track. But writing is what I was born to do, and it is what I love to do. And I know that it will help me cope with Christina's death, & I know that this is what she would want me to do. I summed up the reasons as short as I could. If u would like to read my Christina Grimmie tributes, they are on my instagram @feltonfreak123 . I will be writing again shortly, I love u guys, Thank u for everything <3