Okay so,
I rarely get mad but whenever I do, it ends up being over stupid little things even though that's not why I'm mad, it was just the breaking point.
So now I have to cover up the anger because if my family saw me mad over something so small, they'd end up saying things that would just make me feel worse like "There are other things to get mad at." or "You never get mad!" and it's just frustrating.
I'm so tired of them essentially forcing me to invalidate my own feelings because apparently, I don't feel the "correct" emotion at the "correct" time, so my feelings are incorrect even though I know that already! I know I don't feel emotions properly, but I've gotten so good at masking it that they'd just give me the "This came out of nowhere." excuse like they always do if I tried to get any form of help from them to fix it or even understand it more.
I'm so tired of them. I love them, but I'm just sick of it.
