HalleMei

If I was to publish something (not written by me but given permission to post) that isn’t something I would normally write would you read it and give your honest opinion?

HalleMei

@emrod816 okay thank you :3
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emrod816

@HalleMei I would love to read it and tell you what I think. I'm always willing to do things like these to help other authors.
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lovejaehyunnieee

can i request for botyom chan oneshot??

lovejaehyunnieee

chan is a dominant top and felix is sub bottom but one time felix want to top him and chan regret it
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HalleMei

Of course you can!
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HalleMei

If I was to publish something (not written by me but given permission to post) that isn’t something I would normally write would you read it and give your honest opinion?

HalleMei

@emrod816 okay thank you :3
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emrod816

@HalleMei I would love to read it and tell you what I think. I'm always willing to do things like these to help other authors.
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emrod816

Hi @HalleMei it’s been a while since you last updated. I just wanted to check in to see if your okay. And if your not thats okay too. I hope everything is okay in your personal life and your mental health is at a better place now (:

emrod816

@HalleMei Take as much time as you need. Your health is more important and when you feel ready we'll be waiting. If you need anyone to talk to feel free to DM me if you'd like. Send you my love <3
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HalleMei

Omg this is really sweet I’m gonna cry . I’m doing slightly better. But nothing has came to me. I would have inspiration but then it’ll go immediately because something is going on (i.e arguments within friend group, GCSEs). My mental health hasn’t changed all that much. But I’ll try and keep everyone entertain once I’m back. I promise 
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HalleMei

I... I don’t know what’s wrong with me. One moment I can be as happy as I can be. But the next I’m as sad as anyone doesn’t want to me. So much crap has happened in the last months that it’s overwhelming. Little space isn’t helping me calm down and my anxiety is getting worse. The constant need of reassurance, the annoyance present in my friends voices every time I ask. Whenever I ask something they seemed annoyed. I’m excluding in everything. And my best friend is going through stuff and I can’t help her. I don’t know if I was too blind and naïve to see this before or I’m being paranoid but it’s been like this for years now... is something wrong with me?
          
          And even with books. Whenever I get a compliment on something like the plot or cliffhangers or the unexpected twists I still feel like I’m nothing. That it’s just people taking pity on me. My parents only like my original story which I’m having trouble writing because they want to send it to a publisher which is pressure in itself. School is making me lose sleep and making me pass out from exhaustion. I can’t seem to keep a schedule. I would say that I’ll update my oneshot book. Or update Hyungs. Or update silent scream. Or any other book!!! But I can’t seem too. I read over them to see if something can be edited then I feel like crying because nothing seems good enough. I can’t make my friends happy so how can I make random people happy?
          
          Sorry for this... if this annoys you. I’m just at my breaking point now...

jisungluvy

@HalleMei I'm sure that the people who compliment your writing thinks that it's really good because honestly, it's good as any book you could find at a bookstore.
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HalleMei

@changbuns that’s nice to know :3 but the constant... I don’t know? Feeling like you’re not welcomed? I guess that’s what it is. Anyway that feeling is going to be present always. My books are helping when it used to help me calm down. I’m just. Annoyed at myself for allowing myself to fall into a pit that I can’t climb out of. 
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hyunchanverse

@HalleMei this is happening to me too , don't worry ! you're not alone uwu
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