HammerOfRage

Hey cubs, I'm not completely vanished. I have a lot going on at work, and honestly, I sort of lost my creative spark. I went through some TMS therapy, but my writers block is real.
          	
          	I'm hoping that some new subject matter will help, but we'll see. I'm sorry. ♡

elliescoolyk

Don’t worry about it and take as long as a break that you need mentally and physically even if it’s years or forever your mental health is most important no one will be mad! I hope you are having an amazing day and get some rest!
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HammerOfRage

Hey cubs, I'm not completely vanished. I have a lot going on at work, and honestly, I sort of lost my creative spark. I went through some TMS therapy, but my writers block is real.
          
          I'm hoping that some new subject matter will help, but we'll see. I'm sorry. ♡

elliescoolyk

Don’t worry about it and take as long as a break that you need mentally and physically even if it’s years or forever your mental health is most important no one will be mad! I hope you are having an amazing day and get some rest!
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XxRandom_DoodXx

That Yandere Connor never fails to mesmerize me, every drop of tears is worth it. Reading it soon!

HammerOfRage

@XxRandom_DoodXx Either way, thank you!
            
            My phone doesn't get notifications anymore, lmao.
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XxRandom_DoodXx

@XxRandom_DoodXx Rereading rather*
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HammerOfRage

"Empathy burnout is a real thing. After so many years of putting other people first, overpouring, overgiving, people-pleasing, putting other people first, trying to understand people's reasons for hurting you, and now finally you're exhausted, drained, and indifferent. So, when people try to return after treating you badly, you just genuinely no longer care."

HammerOfRage

@WanderingEldest I'm not religious, but I'm not offended, so thank you. To me, someone saying that they'll pray for me is them doing the Absolute best thing they can think of for me, and it's flattering and heartwarming.
            
            I appreciate everything, cub, so thank you so much. I'm okay, though, I promise! ♡♡♡
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WanderingEldest

From one author to another, I just wanted to say that you are loved and you are valued. I know life can be hard sometimes as I also struggle with mental health issues, but I just wanted to lift you up and say that I enjoy the stories you write no matter the weather. Please do not be offended when I say this because I’m not sure if you’re religious- but God loves you. No matter how you feel, always remember you are fearfully and wonderfully made. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. <3
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HammerOfRage

Right, so... the one-shot isn't happening anytime soon. Wish I could just blame it on my playing the game too much, but no; my mental health took a dive, and I'm back to square one.
          
          I want to go back to last summer when I was excited to write. Now, no matter how badly I want to, I have nothing and just hate myself more with each passing day.

esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  And you're wrong, I'd read this one shot
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esther_carmichael

@ HammerOfRage  I totally get you. Writer's block is a bitch and sucks the life out of you but I think that although it's the arch enemy or every writer, it also makes us strong. Maybe we aren't motivated and can't write anything at all for months or weeks but it doesn't mean that we want to stop. We keep pushing because we love what we do and for me this feeling makes me even more engaged in my works in progress. It hurts and it's one of the major reasons for my self loathing but it convinced me that the projects I'm working in are worth that struggle
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HammerOfRage

Not that anyone would have read it, anyway.
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HammerOfRage

Okay, so... I have a confession to make.
          
          I said I was working on a one-shot of something I hadn't done before. It's still yandere, but not the point. Initially I was struggling because I couldn't get the hang of the character, so writing it was tough.
          
          Then I bought the game for myself and now I can't stop playing the damn thing. THAT'S why I haven't been writing anything.
          
          GALE DEKARIOS HAS CAPTURED MY HEART AND THAT'S WHY I HAVEN'T FINISHED THE ONE-SHOT.
          
          H E L P.

HammerOfRage

@Lumathedoggo I think everybody is. Don't get me wrong, I'm a sucker for him, but I think my heart belongs to the rizzard of Waterdeep.
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Lumathedoggo

Damn, I can't even blame you because I have also fallen into the bg3 fandom. Currently  obsessed with Astarion
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Lumathedoggo

@SalyaDarken Gale Dekarios is a character from Baldurs Gate 3. I can't even blame them, BG3 won game of the year  I'm obsessed with it as well
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HammerOfRage

So I'm working on something new. Just a one-shot, but it's definitely not one I've done before.
          
          I'll give you guys a sneak peek:
          
          "As the world around us falls into madness, so too do our most innocent and beautiful intentions."

thatoneeulamain

@HammerOfRage Oooooo I'm exciteddd
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SalyaDarken

@HammerOfRage interesting. Can't wait.
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Russias_Account

@HammerOfRage Ooo!  Sounds cool!
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