This will be me venting on the community post cuz I know this won't get any traction anyways like it doesn't matter. I'm not making this just to get attention or what, I'm just typing what I wanted to type from the deepest of my heart. To what I was going to vent about, ever since I entered middle school, I never got any true friendship with anyone so I never had any attachments for someone. So all my life since, I've been ignored or never been in someone's thoughts, just existing, like a ghost till I call them then they see my existence like I wasn't there before. I'm not saying they should care or they should've known, it's just hard to live like a ghost most of the time knowing people would forget or not know who you are. Ever since I was a child I had a sensitive heart that even in the slightest pressure it always tightened even if it wasn't a big deal. It's not always easy having to go through all of this and knowing that you'll never going to change their mind. So I try to not think much of it and not care about what others think or whatever they think about me. I don't really like it. Even if I don't care, my heart does. Even if it's the slightest bit of action, it still effects me. I always cry internally but I always accept it. I don't know how long will I be able to live with this condition, but knowing that it won't change anytime soon doesn't make it better. That's all I wanted to vent in this community post. Once again I'm not asking for attention, I'm just wanted to say how I felt for these years that I've lived.