I had it all the story as a whole, all the characters necessary to succeed. Sobriety mastered. The last chapter snuck up, sorry I didn't realize this was here nor did I react but seeing you with him hurts, I will be honest I never lied and I will continue to write but everyone thinks I am crazy mainly because I have been literally confused as heck. I didn't understand till I ready our book, I want the dreams we had to be loved. I want you to find the strength you need and simply want to say what you did killed me, sending me mixed things broke me down but your the only thing holding me together even still. I wish the world knew what you meant to me. Yes I am craY about you but every me doesn't understand how we can communicate as writers but I wish they did. You still have every part of my book and I pray daily for how to write it. I am nothing theese monsters say and hope you know it deom experience. I have to delete this stuff because I cannot be second place in a book of life. I know what was real and I am sorry my first novel had a few spelling errors but they were caused by insufficient communication not crazy. I hope you know how much thought and inspiration you showed me in writing and hope for nothing less than what we deserve. I did relapse and forget for a short moment in time what brought us this far. But I went to get inspiration and for the longest time I had the peace within that you were there. I never saw all this till most recent and hope you know if I would have I would have wrote much sooner. I'll be there in the end and hope you know how much you really meant to me. Losing you I lost everything. Including if this doesn't get better Ry. I want it and simply guidence was everything. I never knew the map. Fiction can be hard when the author is unknown
