harmina

Thank you for taking the time to read The Isles of Gracidea ❤️

Guys..?
          
          I'M ALIVE WOW 

You know what, I've been thinking about it.
          
          If you've seen my last post, it was me venting about 1/10 of how I feel, but now I think I see a little bit of the problem.
          
          I feel pressured because I'm writing stories for approval.
          
          With my books "Under the Apricorn Trees" and everything else, I'm just writing it because I see other people doing it and doing really good. I end up copying people instead of finding what I can really do.
          
          I think what I'm saying is that I'm going to have to take down those stories...
          
          ... And put up new ones -- more sincere, honest and true to what I like.
          
          I hope you Pokémon readers understand, but I'm just still trying to figure out what's going on in my busy little brain.
          
          Thank you so much, and I'll see you soon 

Hello people, 
          
          For the ones who care and are reading this and have become friends with me over Wattpad, I would like to share with you. Maybe you're waiting for an update on one of my stories, or you're one of the friends I've made, please read this.
          
          Im just going to say it straight; I'm going through a depressive time in my life. I don't know who I am, I can't stop thinking about something I've done in the past that has made me so angry with myself. No matter what I do or where I go, the thought doesn't leave me.
          
          I wasn't there when my grandmother died. I felt so guilty. After her death, everything started crumbling down. And until now, I'm just getting weaker and weaker. I don't know who I am anymore, dont know what I love what I hate, dont know what I adore, dont know what my hobbies are. I can't even sulk properly.
          
          I've been breaking down in sudden tears almost everyday now; even in public. Its starting to get out of control. One time I was unconsciously walking to the kitchen and carrying a knife, directing it towards my chest. When I came to realization, I shreiked in horror and ran back to the room crying again.
          
          I still can't tell my parents. They'll think I'm over-reacting. Maybe I am? If I tell my friends, they'll think I'm just another attention-seeker out there, looking for pity.
          
          I just can't. 
          
          I'm probably here to say goodbye. If I don't return, please know that I'm probably in a better place.
          
          I'll see you all later, my friends. ❤ 

Reading your about and I'm in love <3 

Ciao ti andrebbe di dare un'occhiata ai miei disegni?^^

Thank you for following us!
          
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          -Generations Debut

Hello once again, fellow followers! This message is for the people who follow my Pokémon stories. To be honest, I think I'm going to have to put them on hold. It's not that I don't like them anymore, but it's because I think I need to practice writing about other things before writing about Pokemom, because I really want the to be as top-notch as possible. I might be writing a few books before I continue the Pokemon stories, but only to sharpen my skills in writing. Once I feel like I've learned a few more things about writing, then I'll resume to my Pokemon fandom! I hope you all understand. Thank you! 
          
          I shall see you soon! 

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