@HarryPotterFanaticcj don't do this please, things will get better I promise. I really do, just hang on.. I know its the exact same thing I've always been saying but if you can hold out long enough, and appreciate the little things, suddenly life becomes worth living again. Suddenly its not terrible to exist in one place, and where I used to think of (unsubscribing) myself into the pond to see if anybody would care, I know full on well that I am loved.
Hold on, okay? There'll be a situation, and you'll know that you're not forgotten, and you mean something, to someone. To friends, family, even random people on the street might think of you as nice, even if they've barely spoken to you.