I'm Ishita, a 21-year-old Indian Hindu bisexual, born on January 8th. The world often feels overwhelming, and I struggle to find my place in it.


 But music and cricket are my refuges. Justin Bieber, Taylor Swift, and One Direction provide comfort, while Shubman Gill's grace and Ishan Kishan's courage offer me inspiration.  


Life feels heavy, like carrying a storm inside. My dreams, once clear, now seem distant, and self-doubt always lingers. People tell me to believe in myself, but it's hard when my reflection feels foreign. 

Writing used to be my escape, but now even that feels fragile, the words harder to find. I fear losing the one thing that made sense. 

 Liam James Payne's death has deepened the darkness in my life. His voice and presence meant so much to me, and now the world feels colder without him. The loss isn't just of a person, but of the strength he gave me. His absence has left a void that nothing can fill.  Yet, I keep going. Day by day, I hold on to what still brings me solace-music, cricket, writing, and the memories of those who inspired me. 


Shubman and Ishan remind me that even in the darkest times, there's potential for light.  I hold on to the fleeting moments of beauty and hope, believing that life, despite its struggles, still holds meaning. For now, that's enough.


Saw Ishan Kishan on 23rd and 26th January 2025. ♥️🏏